So, yesterday I decided to really try to lose the weight I've gained. And then today, I just ate about 1200 calories over maintenance. What am I thinking? I feel like such a failure. I wasn't even binging; it was more like, wow these cookies taste really good, i think I'll have 5 more! And then I thought oh well I'll get back on track tomorrow so one more doesn't hurt.

Today, I got weighed at the doctor's office. I hadn't weighed myself in 3 months. 3 months ago I weighed 125; I was sure with how much I ate over the holidays that I had gained more weight. But then today at the doctors office I weighed in at 122.5. And so instead of being like oh good, I'm closer to my goal than I thought I was, I decided that it was the perfect opportunity to overindulge. Why do I sabotage myself? I want to eat a healthy balanced diet, and eating 10 cookies in one sitting doesn't really do much for my body.

Why can't I stick to a healthy diet for more than a day? I guess I'm just really annoyed with myself right now.

We all fall off the wagon sometimes. And yes, it can even happen that close to getting back on it in the first place. The important thing is that you get back on one more time than you fall off!

Consider it a reward for losing... we all have to reward ourselves some times other wise we go on binges and they happen more often... so every now and then allow your self to have some thign you want.. and dont feel guilty about it! Just make sure you hop right back o n the wagon right afterwards

Maybe a focus on the quality of your food would be more helpful than to think about how much you want to lose? You have a pretty low goal. It may take while to get there. I find it much easier to eat good things when I'm focusing on keeping myself healthy rather than thinking in terms of how much fatter I could get if I put that cookie in my mouth.

Thanks for the encouragement. I'm in no particular rush to lose weight. I just want to learn a healthy way of eating and I want to end my late night snacking. I've seen so many people post all these great food plans with all different types of vegetables and stuff. I want to learn to eat a wide variety of food. right now, so much of my diet consists of sweets. and unfortunately, it doesn't do my body any favors. My stomach feels weird now, i guess from all those cookies.

I'm going to the grocery store tomorrow, so I'm trying to plan out a healthy eating schedule for the rest of the week. I feel so good and energized when i eat a balanced diet; I don't know why I put crappy food in my system when i know it won't make me feel good.

My mom jokes that my tastes are like a preschoolers; I'm super picky. But, I've been trying really hard to branch out. I recently discovered that I really like beans and that blueberries are pretty good too. It might sound kind of pathetic, but that's a huge step for me. I tried cottage cheese too and it tasted okay, but I plan to try it again soon. I heard that it can take your tastebuds several times trying a food to adapt to them, or something like that.

Sorry for the rambling post! I guess I'm just thinking out loud. Y'all are so sweet though.

UGH! I just totally overate too!! Bf took me out to an early v-day dinner and I wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy overate on REALLY bad stuff!!

I feel disgusting! Not so much that I'm like "oh look what I'm doing to my weight loss!" but my body just feels AWFUL!! This is literally the ONLY time I've EVER considered making myself throw up after I've eaten. I'm not going to b/c I'm totally vomitphobic, but I feel like crappppppppp.

Yeah, I just need to remember what it feels like when I eat too many sweets. Unfortunately, I always seem to forget when I'm reaching for the extra cookie. But now, I'm definitely regretting it!

I know what you mean about just feeling icky. i think that's the worst part; i mean at least i know i can start fresh tomorrow. But i really wish my stomach would start feeling better soon!

I totally overate today too... I'm having a stressful time at work with a coworker who makes me feel next to worthless, and now my boss has joined in... so all I wanted was mountain dew... then ice cream...then chips...then peach rings...which equaled a disaster...worst part is I sent my bf to the store just to get it all cuz we don't have that kind of stuff in our house for just this reason. blah. I'm going to feel like crap tomorrow.

UGH... I had been doing so well. AHHH POOP!

First off I took a rest day on Thursday (due to stress) and then yesterday I got so busy hanging with my niece that I only did like 10 minutes. My niece wanted to come up for the weekend and I don't know what it is about ANY member of my family being in my presence that makes me want to pig out! Emotional issues MUCH?!?

We ordered the 5-5-5 dominoes pizza deal and I got a medium thin crust canadian bacon. Well, I AM proud of one thing. Normally I would just eat 3/4 of it and then sneak the other 1/4 when my husband wasn't looking. It's so easy to eat and entire thin crust medium pizza!!! Well, I actually went online and looked up the calories in the entire pizza which was like 1400 and then I ate half of it. So, about 700 calories. It was made worse when I came at night YET AGAIN and ate another 1/4 of it and then a 100 calorie fudge pop!

AHHH!!! DOUBLE POOP!! The wii said I had lost 4.5 lbs since the 20th. Forget it, I'm over it! Back on track today!

This thing about cottage cheese is everyone enjoys it differently. I like mine with a lot of pepper, my best friend likes his with salt, and a lot of people like it with applesauce or fruit. Do some experimenting.

Honestly, willpower is one thing, but if you deprive yourself for long enough you'll go crazy and want everything.