Like the others that responded, MD, I will try to keep your suggestion about "the woman I am becoming" up at the front of my brain. What a powerful thought, thank you. I really can't go back again and I don't think I really want to. Except for this enormous caboose I'm dragging around, I really love my life.
Sherrie, I quit smoking 10 months ago after a 33 year habit of a pack and a half a day. I feel so good, it's hard to describe. Not only did I kick that stinking habit right in the head (I love visuals), I smell better and I've saved around $3000 and I can breathe again. All the way down to the bottom of my lungs. I never wake up in the middle of the night to go have a smoke, I don't have to leave whatever I'm in the middle of to go outside for a smoke, my house smells nice. I wasted so many years wishing for thinness and smoke free-edness, now I only have to waste time wishing for thinness.
This is what I looked like last summer, I weigh about 20 pounds more now. *yikes*