So last night I helped my husband make dinner which was fine. Then when we all actually sat down to eat dinner I almost cried. I was staring at the rice bowl and just dreaming of eating the entire thing. The rest of my meal was miserable. I was good and drank a whole water bottle first then ate the salad, steamed veggies and the grilled chicken. I was full by the time I took the 1 bite of rice I wanted. I got up from the table earlier than everyone else because it was killing me to watch them all eating as much as they wanted. After everything was cleaned up we took the kids on our new nightly walk around the block with me pulling the kids in the wagon. Its great exercise and I was feeling better until hubby gave the kids each a peanut butter cookie (my fav of course) before they went to bed. It took everything I had in me not to take one, or more. I never thought I had such a problem with food until now. Now I am really seeing all of my issues coming out. I don't know if I have been this strong before but I am hoping that I can continue on. I even turned down chocolate ice cream my husband offered before we layed down. He was trying to make me feel better and told me 1/2 cup is 100 calories. I just said no and that I needed to at least get more will power before I could actually say yes to somethings and be able to restrain myself. Please!!!! tell me I am not the only one dying like this.


Jenn

Jenn, what kind of plan are you on? Drastic changes can be hard, and maybe an all or nothing approach isn't the best way for you to go.

I know I started with small steps-like stopping regular soda for a week, before adding the rule only 1 dessert a week, or switching my cookie for strawberries.

You did really well Jenn, that's showing some amazing willpower! I think if you stick with eating healthy you'll soon not be craving the unhealthy stuff again, it'll just take time. I've had some food obsessions like bread & cheese, and chocolate, so I've had to cut them out completely because it's next to impossible for me to eat them in moderation. Hope you feel better soon!

Jenn,

I know how you feel. I have had happen to me...to actually think about crying because I was tired having to watch every little I eat eat because my fat azz body doesn't metabolize food as fast as others....yah I know.

Somethings I had to give up entirely like the bread basket at restaurants and pastries because I love them so much (and this is a problem) that I don't know when to stop and probably don't care. I gave it up because then after I do it I feel terrible about doing and become so hard on myself.

But one thing I have noticed over the years is once you go through your withdrawl from simple sugars and carbs you won't crave it so much. You will actually crave veggies and water and feel sludgy when you eat junk. I promise this will happen eventually. Just hang in there or maybe do as majik said and gradually go into like giving up sugared drinks, then rice, not all rice, say white rice and opt whole grains and wheat whenever you can. Okay this is getting wordy so I hope I gave a tip or two.

I have to agree with what everyone else said. I think we've all been there. A lot of times I think the majority of us have to watch trigger foods.

Did you notice what you DID say though? You stared at the bowl of rice and by the time you took your first bite of rice you were FULL. That's a good thing and it's a good thing that you recognized that you were FULL instead of over indulging.

You may have seen it as a completely negative moment... but you did EXCELLENT! CONGRATS TO YOU!

First congratulations on not giving in last night!! Seriously that can be so difficult. I hope you realize what a great accomplishment that in itself is. You definitely are not alone!!

Just remember that it gets better!

It definitely does get easier. I've been eating pretty healthy for 2 months and most of the time when I see my friends eating junk I get so turned off. I just think about all the crap thats in it and how bad it is for them. I actually end up feeling bad they don't realize what they are doing to themselves. I still have my trigger foods, but even those I can usually have in moderation and still exercise control.

Stick with it!

Jenn,
Great job on saying no! I know how hard that can be!

Is there any way you can talk to your husband or plan meals ahead of time that would be beneficial to everyone? Maybe something else that could have substituted for the rice? Maybe he can give the kids snacks when you aren't around to see it so you won't be tempted? I know my hubby is the same way, trying to make me feel better when I'm down, and he brings me chocolate (my fave, but also my enemy), which is the last thing I need.

Just take small steps and don't punish yourself for being tempted, we all get tempted from time to time.

Believe me, it feels so much worse to give into the temptation and actually have the bad things! Yeah you felt a bit miserable and you didn't get to have all of the tasty things your family were having, but you got through that night, and didn't give in! You showed amazing willpower, and just think of all the calories you didn't put inside yourself!

You're doing so well, but make sure you allow yourself a treat now and again.
xx