So granted, I haven't lost a lot of weight but I've lost some. I haven't lost a lot of inches but I've lost some. My clothes are looser. I'm stronger. I can't eat as much as I used to.
Well...
This weekend, I went ice skating with friends. Even though it was pretty low-intensity, I really felt a bit of a workout. Afterwards we went out to dinner, dessert, and karaoke. The worst wasn't what I ate but what I drank. Since getting serious about dieting I've barely drank at all and that night I drank a lot. I didn't care too much because it was fun to enjoy time with friends.
... and then I saw the pictures from that night.
There's a shot from behind of my friend and I ice skating. I want to cry. One butt check of mine is like the size of her whole butt and she isn't someone that I'd look at and think SKINNY, just average-to-slim. At the karaoke bar I look huge and pregnant.
I'm so disappointed! After nearly 3 months of dieting, I feel like I look the worst I've ever looked. There wasn't one shot where I thought I looked good. I have two chins and am thick up and down. I was looking through old pictures at how I used to look... even weighing 10 lbs less you can really see the difference between then and now.
Anyways, I'm sorry I'm just depressed about this. I've been working hard and I thought it was making actual progress and I feel like, visually at least, I'm at square one.