I'm having a day. A week really. I am fighting fat demons all over the place and coming to terms with how far I've come, how far I have to go and getting/being/staying in a good mindset as far as my weightloss journey goes.

The only thing really sane about my life right now is my eating. It's my one measure of control and I am fighting to KEEP controlling it.

Nothing huge has happened. My mind is muddled though. Look for a very long post from me tonight where I do a massive dump of my brain.

In the meantime? The music is cranked, the daycare is messy, the babies are happy and I am just dancing. Wildly.

I look forward to reading your brain dump tonight but for now....I'm there with you in spirit!! (I'm actually at my desk at work, can't dance...they'd all think the fat girl went craaaazy!!)

Seems like today is the day..for "having a day". I fell off the wagon today for the first time since I started this plan. Just a stressfull all around time of year!!

I look forward to it too. Just keep on dancing girl--and spend your time contemplating what you will write to us tonight. I know what you mean about your food being the one thing you control. I completely and fully identify with that. That is one reason I didn't "choose a program" or "join a gym" in order to lose weight. I want this all up to me--not dependent upon my payments to someone or someone else's philosophy. It's the ONE thing in life that is all about ME.

do do do
Just dance
gonna be okay
do do do
just dance
let the record play

I love the chorus of that song

You go girl!