I started my "diet", cutting back & walking on september 11th of this year. I was walking alomst everyday different places for 45 mins to an hour & i was eating healthy for the first time. This went on for almost 2 weeks. And for me thats a record. I had never lasted more then a day before this and i even lost 10lbs. I was so proud of myself, everyone around me was tellin me they were started to see my progress and that was a good feeling.

After that i had some family events to go to & my sisters bachlorette party. Which means it was hard saying no to food i knew i shouldnt be eating & i didnt wanna not have a few drinks with everyone at the bachlorette party. Its gone downhill since.

Its been a week & ive done nothin but eat badly agian & not walk. I DO NOT want to gain all that weight back. I worked so hard for the first time and i feel so ashamed of myself. My mother keeps asking me why im eating this way after losing the weight thinking its guna motivate me but it brings me down even more. I felt like i was so starving when i went thru that 2 weeks, i wasnt very happy because the food i was eating wasnt very tasteful to me or filling.

Im on the verge of tears right now because im sick of being fat and unhappy and i dont know where my motivation went. Seeing peoples before & after pictures on this site was the ONLY reason i started this because i for once saw the results that i could maybe one day get. I feel like no one around me understands...or is willing to help me. I watch the biggest loser everyday and wish i could go and have someone kicking my *** at the gym..and wishing there wasnt a way out so i HAD to do it.

Im just struggling to stay strong & dont know what to do anymore

You can start over anytime. Don't beat yoursel over what has happened.

Do you realize everyone on this board has felt this way some time or another?

Family events are tough, but not impossible. The event is NOT ABOUT THE FOOD. It's about family. It's about spending time with eachother. It's not about eating cake. And it never will be.

We mess up, it's hard to get back to it, but we have to, because if we don't we just end up at our highest weight again. There are numerous posts about this. Look around, you'll notice a ton of people posting "confession time! I ate some donuts and i probably shouldn't have had the bagel chaser. Getting back to my healthy eating RIGHT NOW. I've made some eggs for breakfast, and planned my walking for right before lunch."

This is it. It's your first test. Not avoiding food at all costs, but getting UP when all you feel like doing is staying down. It's embarrassing. (How could I fall down?!) It's humbling. (I guess I'm human afterall.) But when you get through that first few moments of a walk. When you've finished eating that well-balanced dinner, it is worth it. It. Is. WORTH. It.

Stop dieting. Stop restricting your foods to gross bland food. That is not living life. Take a look at some of the wonderful things the people in the maintainers area are eating. Not everyone eats plain salads for lunch every single day for the rest of their lives. Stop even fathoming that this might be temporary. Don't even entertain the idea of "temporary". These are permanent changes you must be making. Those walks, you do them every day. That's your new normal. And when you miss a day, you just get right back onto that new normal.

It IS possible for you. It is not only possible... but it is inevitable IF you just keep going forward.

We've all been there. Please. Get back up. Come back to 3FC as much as you need. Share your successes, no matter how small. Share your annoyances about other people who don't understand... because we do. Rant & rave. We want to help you.

Whatever happens, know that it is possible.

Don't get discouraged! We all fall of the wagon sometimes, and that's ok. We're normal people & we have weakness' and moments of weakness. The important thing, is to take it for what it is. So you screwed up, so what?! Turn it around & get right back to what you were doing. If you're trying to lose weight, you are going to have good days & bad days. You CAN NOT get discouraged when you eat something that you are not supposed to. If you keep accepting the fact that you will have screw ups, but you get right back to healthy eating & doing that walking, you will see results. I've found that it's easier to stay motivated & on track by allowing yourself to cheat, one time a week. On Sundays, I eat "normal" food and don't worry about the calories. That gives me something to look forward too and helps me to not fall off the wagon during the week. Stay strong & keep chuggin' it, it will happen, you lost 10 lbs already!

First, congratulations on losing 10 pounds! You've done great!

You've had a bad week. We all have bad weeks. Stop beating yourself up.

Start again today. Take a walk. Eat something you like that's healthy. As everyone who has been here awhile says, "It's a process." You have made a good start on a new future. Try to enjoy the process and think of it as a positive thing. You can do this! Draw strength and some from the inspiring quotes at the top of the Chicks in Control forum. Maybe pick one that speaks to you today and use it to get through the day. Maybe there will be a different one tomorrow. We are all here for you and know that you can be the you that you want to be.

time to start again - and you can do it!

First things - start walking again! ASAP. Even if you ate poorly all day, get that walk in before you go to bed. Maybe it's a small step, but it starts you on the right track.

Also, I agree with disgruntledone, if you have felt hungry and like your food wasn't tasty and fulfilling, you should take a look at your food plan and revise it. I won't say I'm never hungry, but I do think I eat a lot of tasty food that is healthy. There's lots of recipe suggestions all over 3fc and on other sites online that offer low cal, low fat, low carb, whatever you want, options.

Good luck to you - keep those 10 lbs off and keep going to your goal!