Urgh, after 10 straight days of what turned out to be Phase 1, I started having REALLY, REALLY bad sugary cravings last night. I could have resisted them with a lot of willpower. But I caved. We had a pumpkin roll from the deli with cream cheese filling.. mm.. I had been craving pumpkin ALL FRIGGIN DAY.
I don't understand WHY I was craving things. The book says you'll banish cravings but that has never been the case for me.
I'm not blaming the cravings for my screwup, I am the one who decided to act upon them and I take responsibility. I'm just wondering why I had them when phase 1 is supposed to get rid of them.
Still, I'm at 190. Maybe by Christmas I'll be at 165? (wishful thinking!) I'm hoping and hoping and hoping my little sugarfest didn't up the scale any, as long as I eat OP for the rest of the day... (yes, I kinda had a thin slice of pumpkin roll for breakfast as well.. the other piece is for BF, I can't touch it cause I know he'll be mad cause he wants it when he gets home)
Made asiany chicken soup last night and after is when I had the cravings. It had a can of tyson white meat chicken, chicken boilloun, chopped onion, garlic and onion powder, green beans, soy sauce, ginger, sesame oil.. I guess it didn't hit the spot like I thought it did. Will have that for lunch and peanuts for a snack, probably shrimp stirfry or something for dinner. Not sure..
I hope what I had last night and this morning won't affect anything overall.. but it's pretty pathetic I can't even make it 11 days without wanting something junky.
I need to come up with a great sugar free dessert thing made with splenda to keep in the freezer for when I have these urges.. a sf fudgesicle just won't hit the spot. I was thinking last night about what sort of things I could make using splenda to kill the craving, and then thought about what time it was and that I needed something NOW, and said, screw it. I need a backup plan!
Urgh. I will never be 165 by Christmas, let alone even 170. Those are not goals I've set, I don't set goals like that anymore.. still, it's okay to dream, isn't it? hehe.
