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I swear, I suddenly have 2 chins.
I know how I ended up into the "2's". Last year was very difficult and mashed potatos make it all go away. Now here I am, trying to find a way to lose weight and I'm ashamed of myself. I'm ashamed to go for walks because things jiggle. I'll do yoga at home and then skip it for 3 days in a row. I'm pretty much at my wits end.
To top it off, I get to go to a reunion on May 9th. Thrilled to death, I tell you. I'm more worried about my reunion then fitting into my wedding dress last year (of course, considering the timing of my wedding not much did matter anymore). I'm pretty much in the dumps. I cried about it last weekend and my husband was very sympathetic-he said he'd stick by me no matter what I chose to do but do you know what that did? It reaffirmed to me that he does think I'm fat. I'm a mess.
Do I need motivation? Yes. Why isn't summertime and cute summer clothes motivation for me? Why does it just not matter? How can I do really well all day and then eat a damned Hershey bar at my desK?



