But still I have cellulite and am so not toned. Just to make it worse I seem to have lost all motivation when it comes to exercise and I dont know why. I have never been all jazzed up about weight lifting so I stuck mostly to cardio, stationary bikes and running on inclines. Sunday was my last good day. I didn't do much but I had a very sweaty run and I felt good afterward. Monday morning I go to run but wasn't quite feeling it so I did a very brisk walk for an hour telling myself I'll come back tonight for another hour maybe to make it even... but I didn't because I told myself I had to do homework, which I didn't do because I felt frustrated. Today was supposed to be a fresh start, but I slept in and only had time to take my dog for a half hour walk before school. So, I plan on going for a quick jog tonight and try out a new workout video I got to start toning up my legs and core. I was in my workout room for ten minutes... my shins started to feel uncomfortable during my jog, so I started to walk again to avoid shin splints. Instead it made me frustrated and I came in to just start the video.
I didn't even make it through the warm-up and I'm sitting here crying because I don't know what the **** happened to my motivation. Exercise and school should be the most important things right now, but sometime between Sunday and Monday I lost all motivation.
I don't know what to do, I just needed to vent because I feel like such a failure. Not to mention that I am carrying so much water weight, so that makes me feel even less confident in anything.


I still have a bit of fat to get rid of but the exercise I'm doing and the clean eating have my thighs looking better at 50 something than they did back then. I am convinced that it's the result of limiting the chemicals I ingest. So, don't despair
it truly can be done.

