Well, I had just found out i was pregnant about a month ago. Even though me and the babys father had seperated I was happy that I was given this wonderful gift that i had prayed to God about.
Well, my body suffered. I gained twenty pounds in the two and a half months I was pregnant, and i didn't care because I was pregnant. Well two days ago I lost the baby. A few days before that I lost my house, my job (due to reasons I wish not to explain.), i was so stressed. Right now Im with my sister and I lost the baby.
A part of me was kind of relieved that this happened because I knew I wasn't ready for baby, I strongly dissagree with Abortions and I knew if i had gone through the whole pregnancy I knew I wouldn't have been able to give him/her up. (the father didn't want to be apart of my or the babys life).
I was, at best, ok until my friend posted the pictures of her newborn daughter on her myspace and I was hit with depression.
im putting all my energy into exercising and I just don't know how to move past everything.....
I don't know where this is suppose to end. Im sorry.


I'm sorry.
So sorry for your loss... I second everything Suzzyy said. Sounds like you are taking some steps in the right direction by taking care of yourself.
I'm sure they want to. Can you choose one person that you know will listen, even if they don't fully comprehend, and open yourself up to them? I know it's a scary thought, but it could be very healing.