Once in a while for inspiration i look on youtube at the before/after weight loss videos.. there are some really good ones on there.. anyhow, this am when i looked a whole bunch of anorexic videos came up on the column to the right. I looked at a couple of them and it just broke my heart. I feel sorry for myself so often for being 'fat', and forget there are people with problems at the other end of the spectrum. There was one video in particular that showed a womans reflection in the mirror and she was a lil chubby.. then it showed what she actually looked like, and she was literally skin and bones. How does ones perception get so distorted? i have read a few posts in this forum about how even when people have lost weight it takes a long time for them to see the 'real' them, and not the old heavier them. i wonder is it possible to go from one end of the spectrum to the other? It is just a big eye opener for me...i want to get Healthy and hopefully keep each and every pound i lose in perspective.. rejoice in each accomplishment no matter how small. and also remember no matter how hard things seem, there are always people out there that have it as hard as you if not harder. I hope each and every one of us can keep it in 'perspective ' and get healthy, just as i hope each and every person at the opposite end of the spectrum can do the same.

I am one of those girls who just doesn't see it. I last weighed myself yesterday morning and I'm down to 126, one pound away from my goal, 20ish pounds less than I was in December at my highest weight. Sadly, all I can ask is "well where did all this weight go? I still look the same."
When I was at my highest, I was in a dressing room with horrible fluorescent lighting and a 4 way mirror.. I saw everything! It was such a shock to me because I had no idea I had gained so much weight (I lived in England for 3 months, ate & drank a ton everyday and always wore pants and a pea-coat so I guess I never noticed)

Anyway, my boyfriend says I am so tiny, but I still don't see it. I can NOT wait til I do. I had to convince my self that I am looking thinner, even though I don't see it, and I can't go any lower than 125.