Hi everyone! My name is Jackie (I’m going to be 21 this August) , and I just wanted to take a little time to share my story, and my goals with you all. I’ve decided that I can’t do this on my own, and any support or encouragement that all of you wonderful ladies could provide would be an immense help to me right now!
I have always been on the heavy side since I was a little kid, and weight has always been an issue…but I am so, so ready to not have it be an issue in my life anymore! The past four years have been an immense struggle for me-so many family and personal issues that I really don’t feel like going into detail about right now…
Unfortunately, they’ve all been kicked up a notch or two within the past year, and I have put on about 20 pounds due to binge eating. I have so many emotions that go along with this because a year ago, I had actually lost quite a bit of weight and was just beginning to feel comfortable in my own skin…now I feel horrible, ashamed, embarrassed, ridiculous, and hopeless.
I feel like I won’t be able to feel good about anything again until I break this cycle and lose the weight, and it’s so very hard for me to believe that it can be done…that’s where I hope you all will help J
My goal is to lose about 30 pounds by January 1st, 2009. That is about 5 ˝ months from now. For my own personal beliefs, I have chosen to become a vegan, which means that my diet will be changed significantly. I am also going to be walking on a treadmill for one hour a day, seven days a week-and doing some core strengthening and toning.
Can it be done? Can I reach this goal? Why can’t I just believe?
Belief is the key to it all. I could lose as much weight as I want to if I could just forgive myself for how badly I have treated myself (and my loved ones…because when you don’t take the very best care of yourself, you cause your loved ones heartache too…this has made me feel so ashamed)…I need to forgive myself, put the past away, and keep moving forward…and BELIEVE…
I would sincerely appreciate any positive comments any of you ladies could provide. I am struggling so much with forgiving myself…I feel so much pain at what I have done to myself…and I’m so very sad to be turning 21 years old with this weight, and experience, imprinted on my memories…
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope to hear from some of you.
BELIEVE! and love,
Jackie





