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Ruth, I did reread that article about the scales and what those numbers can and do mean. I think it is good to go back and review some of that stuff every so often.
I think that most of us who are in this for the long haul come to a point where they make peace with the scale. I used to obsessively weigh myself multiple times per day. I was so insecure about my weight. Luckily, I never did really define myself solely on that number or any other number and I never did until I "went public" and had to weigh for a diet group. That was the first time that I began to be afraid to see what the number was. Before that I never weighed myself. When it became a "big deal" to the person recording it, it suddenly became a big deal to me. PS I am a "recovering" people-pleaser too!
Remember, there are plenty of people who have starved themselves to be a certain number and are not healthy. I've known and seen them. Anoexeria runs in my family. I had an elderly aunt die of it. She was a beautiful woman and so sweet but she was terrified of gaining weight. How sad!
It is better to feed your body the kind of food and fuel that will help your body do the job it was meant to do all along. That is truly the most loving thing you can do for yourself. The bike riding is too! I am going to get on a bike this summer for the first time in 20 years! I am nervous. I am afraid I might fall down so I bought a bike helmet. My sister said how fast you plan on going? I said, I'm not competing in the tour de France, I just plan on falling some.
Don't be so hard on yourself. I like
Nessa's comments. Weight can, does and "should be" a range. If you read that article, you will see why and how that happens. And, yes, we all are made the same way! If that happens to you, more than likely it has happened to all of us at one time or another!