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Originally Posted by Eskinomad
You know - I didn't realize I had this problem until you mentioned it in the other thread. I'm assuming you suffer for it worse than I do, because it seems to really bother you. But you TOTALLY turned a light bulb on in my head. I didn't even REALIZE it's what I do. But it completely is.
I'm living in the dorms at college - so any groceries I do buy, I divide up as soon as I get home. I make 'snack packs' to get me through eight am classes that last til two pm. More than wanting to eat the groceries, I have a thing about organizing and LOVING to put stuff in bags. I have no idea why.... I sound very OCD right now.. But like, as soon as I get a new lip gloss, I love to get rid of the packaging and put it in my purse. So I guess bagging up my food distracts me from wanting to eat -all- of it.
Yeah, it does bother me a lot because I know that it's very disordered. I've been known to get home and eat a TV dinner, then all the fruit I bought, plus several meal bars (meant as quick breakfasts), and a bowl of cereal all in the course of about 3 hours.
I will keep eating it even when I feel bloated from it. God, that's so shameful to admit. It's no wonder I've gained 5 lbs since my May honeymoon. That said, I'm down 1 lb today and for the past three days have eaten only 1,200 - 1,400 calories a day. But it's so difficult, I'm determined now though. I just refuse to gain any more, but I dread my next trip to the grocery store.
It's odd, when I was much younger I never ate this way. I was 105 lbs and would work out about 2 hours a day, and I rarely felt hungry. I have this awful suspicion that hormonal birth control plays some part, too (not all, mind you), but when I started I gained 15 lbs. in two months without a dramatic change in eating habits, and within a year I realized that I'd developed a voracious appetite I'd never had before. From that point on, my weight has just crept up. I'm getting off hormones soon though, we'll see what happens then.