Ok, so with my brothers wedding slowly approaching I am getting more and more nervous about seeing everyone - finals are coming up - and my anxiety has been awful.
The last 4 days I have been off my life-style. I haven't been as bad as I use to - but it hasn't been great.
I am missing my mom horribly because I know she would have loved to be here for the wedding - I am nervous because I am know I am the biggest girl in my family - I am nervous because my fiance is English and this is the first time he has met the WHOLE family and because of his thick accent no one will understand him and they will ask stupid questions like "Do you know Prince William?"
I know if just need to take a deep breath and realize it's only one day outta of my whole week and it's going to be a good time..but it sucks I am still grieving about my mom. I am really going to miss her this weekend and it's almost killing me inside - I just can't imagine how my brother must feel. And I am drowning all my sorrows in food and I feel greasy and bloated.
I need to get back on my plan - I have wonderful wholesome food in the house and a family that loves me and stuffing myself is only going to make me feel even crappier.
I know I have gained some weight back - probably a lot of water weight so I just need to get back on the horse and not be too hard on myself.
Any suggestions about getting water weight and bloat off by friday?



I imagine that is SO hard on you.

j/k