So here's a weird concept... okay, I really like working out. It makes me feel good and most of the time it's fun. I make about 1/2 the workouts I intend to do (I intend to work out every single day, and wind up working out 4 days a week usually). And this is because sometimes I feel that working out, even though it feels good, is a 'punishment' to me for my body being the way it is.
I've eaten healthy and organic for years so I know that my body looks the way it does because of PCOS, and nothing I did to it. (Granted, if I were naturally an athlete I probably wouldn't have all these symptoms...)
But sometimes I find myself believing right before a workout phrases like "if you were thin, then you wouldn't have to take time out of your day to do this hard work. You'd be able to do the shopping you need to do, or go see your boyfriend now instead of in 2 hours, or sit on your bed and read. If you were thin you'd be able to sleep in until 7 instead of getting up at 5:10!!" "The reason you have to spend money on fitness memberships is because you need to fix your body. If your body wasn't broken you wouldn't have to do this."
I know this is so dumb, and I like feeling like I'm becoming more athletic. But too often these thoughts crowd into my head and sabatoge my efforts. It's so hard to stop them. I'm losing weight slowly, so at least I'm losing, but it's the everyday battles I'm not really winning.
Anyone else have these problems or have overcome them? How? I may start writing them in a journal as soon as I think them, then try to 'talk' myself out of it by writing positive things...

So, you will always workout at the gym... it is a lifestyle
) but it really does work. 

It's kinda working. I'm still trying to figure out what works best for my body and that's the hardest part so far for me. 
