Hi all! It's the missing mama!
I've been trying to catch up on some posts. It's been soooo long since I've been around. But my friends here have been in my thoughts and prayers daily.
Agreed, February was a dreadful month! I think the extreme stress in my life actually began Feb 19 th of LAST year and carried over!
Just to update you a bit on what's been going on. This is pretty tough to post and I've debated over it BUT it may be an eye opener for someone out there.
My daughter informed me a few months ago that she had finally put her sdh out of the house. We had suspected some verbal abuse and had "assumed" she had finally had enough. Well, about six weeks ago she informed me of the extent of the abuse which involved my granddaughters (9 and 11). In trying to shorten this as much as possible I was able to relocate her and the children from a town about 45 minutes or so away to a house down the street from us (God definately heard those prayers). We've been scurrying around trying to put furniture together, seeking assistance, counseling, etc.. All of which has been frustrating as you hear of so many support groups out there for abused women and children, yea right.... But the hardest part has been in watching how the children are dealing with things on a daily basis. The eleven year old feels guilt as she thinks if she had come forward sooner her younger sister wouldn't been a victim also. The nine year old is having a definate personal hygiene problem which we've come to understand is a symptom. My six year old grandson has taken to talking and hitting his siblings and mother as he said his dad did and the 2 year old clings to her like a little monkey. And, having been a sexually abused child it has awaken many deep hidden emotions within myself that I thought I had buried or dealt with. All in all things have been pretty emotional around here.
I have to admit that I've been striking out I guess somehow wanting my dh to make things better (which of course he can't) and struggling with my own feelings that I haven't protected my precious babies.
In hindsight there were signs. Kayla (11) had become withdrawn and missing school - didn't want to be told she was pretty. We thought it was due to her age and her first year in middle school as she's shy. Jordana (9) with her personal hygiene we thought was a phase.
I encourage anyone who may have the slightest question of suspected abuse to please educate yourself on the signs. I sure wish we had.
Sure don't want to be a downer but wanted to pop in and let you all know I'm still alive and will try to come around a bit more as things calm down.
Thanks for the PM's and well wishes. I'm looking for that clearing Peach! And want you all to join me! We'll have a grand time with that 6 pack of Bud, singing Freddie Canon tunes, giggling while licking bowels! (is that LC ?)
Luv to all!
J