what is the silliest thing you do/used to do while overweight?

I've just remembered this one thing I always did

when I went out with my friends and we were dancing in the club, I was always looking around to see are there some cute guys looking in our direction...but not to flirt but to move more in the back so I wouldn't be in front when they are obviously not looking at me but to other skinny and pretty girls and not the ugly me I even thought it's my duty in some weird, low self-esteem way

I thought it's better for me to move in back than guys to think I'm just a fat girl who dances bad and that I have nothing to do at the dance floor among all those babes

now to think about it, it's stupid and wrong of me to hate myself so much

I NEVER wore shorts or short skirts without tights, because I was so self conscious. Oh, to look like I did then! How I WISH I had the body I was once ashamed to show!!!

When I walked outside I used to look down..I was afraid all people would see was my fatness.

I never used to be able to suck in my gut, so I would push it out as far as it could go and rub it in the hopes people would think I was pregnant. Oy! How nerdy is that?

I remember in high school I declined invitations to go places like the beach, school dances, the movies, and so on, because I thought I was too fat to go! I was embarassed about my size, and didn't want to go anywhere I might get made fun of.

I sincerely wish I was that "fat" now! (My goal weight is probably 10-20 pounds heavier than I weighed in high school)

As a teen I would wear baggy tshirts and tye flannels or sweat shirts around my waist to cover my butt. In all honesty it just made me look bigger probably.

In high school..I used to wear band t-shirts ALL the time to hide my stomach.

So many things! I was nodding reading what everyone did, I did all those things.

If I wanted to buy food I always brought more than I needed and two drinks so it looked like I wasn't just buying for me (so of course I ended up eating way more than I needed!).

Pulling off the little plastic bits on coat hangers in the store that had the sizes on them so people wouldn't see me walking around with size 24 clothes

Oh ya..I used to look forward to it getting cold, so I could wear big jackets. And in Arizona, the winters were pretty mild and it would start getting warm again by Feb or March, and I'd keep on trying to wear my jacket as long as possible. Even though I would be sweating my butt off!!

wow, i had that problem too....a few years and some inner work later and i now love myself regardless if i'm 40 pounds heavier. I feel more beautiful now then i did when i was skinny. I have no idea how i lived as much as i did without ever seeing myself. I hope that every person here finds that within themselves, to just love and appreciate yourself.nothing is more satisfying in this world.

Been there done that!

I didn't have a wedding so I wouldn't have to wear a wedding dress, be seen in front of people, or take photos.

Layri -
I just stopped doing that last week. seriously.
and since then, i have gotten nothing but compliments on how fantastic/thin i look! i feel so silly now!

omg, i seriously wanted to do that. but my mom wouldnt let me. i didnt even want to wear a white dress because i thought it made me look huge. but in most of the pics, i dont look that bad.