Hi everyone. I think Imma have to sit the rest out. The weigh in part. It's bad. REAL BAD. LOL. I shouldn't laugh but I gotta keep my sense of humor. This stuff waiting for babies, and all the back and forth was depressing me sooo much but I've decided to focus on my two kids who are here forever and put away all my baby things, the bassinett and all the clothes, and swing, etc.
I need to be able to focus on who's here not who I want to join us. It's just too much for me now. So I am making a goal to get to goal -177- By my daughter's birthday party in mid June. It CAN be done. And IMMA DO IT!!!
I just have to get my mindset back to normal, so glad that being this much smaller, and all I had to learn to get me here has become my new normal and my old ways are history (except when they come back for two weeks and I gain 8 lbs., some of which is probably pms but hey I don't know at this point, lol. There was an incident with cookie dough.. well actually a few of those. Don't ask.)
I think I will have to get up at 6am to exercise. I want to go walk in my neighborhood b4 my dh has to go to work every day (he leaves about 720 on his earliest day), bc esp in summer, I have all my kids with me all day, we stay so busy to keep them occupied plus I'll have Emily hanging on my legs while I try to work out, not good.
It doesn't look like we are getting Gerber; they had already put him in yet another home and didn't want to move him from it. His attorney said Well if you'd have left him with them this wouldn't have happened. He shouldn't have to pay the price. He said he was so sorry but nothing could be done. Just breaks my heart. I just can't keep thinking about it though, because it's literally killing me, I'm depressed and steadily gaining weight. I'm so sorry to vent to you all so much. I promise to keep it all to a bare minimum next challenge and the rest of this one.
Thanks so much for listening,

Hugs, Selina