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  • can someone please outlaw pasta? Now it's not normally in my food spectrum. This week cash is supertight so I'm digging into the back of my Pantry I would have meat and veggies However a bottle exploded in my freezer so that's all Gone $100 in Kieran Friendly food.
    I was lazy tonight I had pasta already cooked for James and I just didn't want to make 1 more thing for me.
    I measured out a half cup ate that then had a piece of Bread then and this is how I knew I wasn't peckish!
    I had a Tablespoon of regular full sugar cocoa Mix Straight. .. not cocoa hot chocolate Mix.
    I am so Frustrated with myself! I am worth it to make a Frickin can of tuna or a protein shake
    Anyway I just needed to share Where I wouldn't be Judged
    Thanks,
    Kier
  • no judgement. i so badly want some cheetos. i want to eat the whole bag and then lick my fingers.
  • It's so funny, Whenever I hit a low and trust me tonight was low. I ended up having a bowl of cereal then the self judging started with with a vengeance
    I was flipping and came upon Deepak Chopra's The Happiness Prescription
    and #s 7, 8 & 9 in his Guide to happiness
    (I'm a nerd I took notes)
    Were
    Don't Judge Others or Yourself
    Eliminate Toxins from your Body and Emotions
    and
    Replace Fear with Love
    (Ask the Question is this going to cultivate Unity in me or Separation)

    This has been my week for smack myself on the forehead moments (I call them V8 Moments like the new cycle of ads)
    by judging my self I brought in more toxins (in this case my binge) into my body and emotions (cycle of shame/guilt)
    and I sat here like a little lost dog feeling like a nothing
    Then I flipped to Deepak.
    So as wacko as it may sound I think I was supposed to hit bottom tonight.
    That being said I'll be in full detox mode tomorrow.
    But I feel better on the inside for seeing the program.
    And being an Irish Catholic, LOL we're taught to shove down whatevers internal and slap a smile on. So *V8* me!
    Mist thanks for the ear/eyes
  • Lovely thoughts Kieran, thank you for sharing them with me tonight. I hit a bottom of sorts yesterday and it's where I was most of the day... I will hold onto what you said about Deepak's prescription.

    Angela
  • Angela My Sister in Flintstones Love! we're in this together Lady!
    I better pick myself up and crawl into bed