Thought I'd start our chat this week girls!

Ok... had to run there for a minute.

I'm trying to get back on track today. This weekend was scary. I have a workout planned with my girlfriend tonight and I don't seem to be bent on binging all day.

I have a lot of things I need to do today, but I'm kind of dragging and not too excited about it.

Sassy: I figured something was going on with you. Sorry to hear about your family situation. We are all here for you and your decision to live healthier. That is what I'm battling for right now. I'm tired of feeling like crap all the time and I'm doing what I can. I'm sure neither of us will be perfect, but something is better than nothing. Keep us posted on your efforts and your uncle.

Everybody! (and what y'all up to?)

Hi Ladies,

Sassy geeze I'm sorry to hear about your uncle but I"m glad something good is coming from it... your desire to get healthy. You go girl !!!

Hope I'm with yah on trying to get back on trak. I did fairly good today...waiting for DH to come home so I can make some salmon.

I'm so glad I have you all to help me along my journey and I'm glad I can help you with yours.

See you tomorrow

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Hi all! Can't stay, I'll pop in tomorrow.

Sassy - Oh, sweetie! So sorry about your uncle . Be well!

Morning all:

I would greatly appreciate all your fine ladies' support through a firm swift kick to the rear. The cheddar popcorn got me last night Why, you might ask, had I kept the popcorn in my house? Ah, that is an excellent question. Well, its in the trash now.

I didn't drink anywhere near enough water yesterday, which seems to be a major contributor to my hunger issues. So, instead of drinking more fluid, I ate everything I could find (luckily I don't keep much food in the house, so other than the popcorn the damage was pretty minimal). It didn't even taste good. Then this am, I woke late and got to work without breakfast, so I ended up having a greasy breakfast sandwich. Why???? I could have got yogurt instead, but I didn't. Ugh.

Then... my math problem from Heck has just gotten worse - the project was further expanded. I am so not having fun with it anymore

OK (pulls self up out of well of self-pity) I've gotta go track down that wagon so I can get myself back up on it! Hope everyone is having a better day than I am (especially you Sassy!)

Oh, before I forget - Cat! Hope to see more of you!

Oooh - Amarie, were we on the same emotional/spiritual plane last night?? I have hit an all-time low, ladies.... last night I actually dug food out of my garbage (! !) and ate like a fiend. OMG. What's happening to me?!

Laying low, licking my wounds... I'll be back. x

Can't believe I have confessed this. Oh, the shame.

Oh Heather I feel awful that you had such a bad night,too, but somehow comforted that I wasn't alone in my food insanity. I am now convinced that I must take my garbage (with popcorn) out to dumpster AS SOON AS I GET HOME tonight. Sigh. We will overcome this.

Heather and Amarie: Is it possible that we were separated at birth? Last night after planning to cook a healthy meal, I instead suggested a Greek restaurant. The rolls there weigh about a pound a piece and were followed by a greek salad (tons of feta cheese), and a dish called aphrodite spagetti, which is baked spagetti with mozzarella and feta. I have had enough dairy to last the month!

All this crap is making me crave more crap! After lunch I wanted something sweet so bad I thought I'd die. Luckily all I have is one piece of angle food cake, which is light, but I wolfed it down like a drug addict. I don't mind to allow myself something sweet, but it is the out of control manner in which I ate it that scares me. I'm afraid my control is slipping away...

I've got to get a grip!!

Good morning.....

Do you think it has anything to do with the Lunar Eclips we are having tonight? http://sunearth.gsfc.nasa.gov/eclips...2008Feb21.html I really want to see this tonight.

I did great yesterday and then not so great after dinner Oh well, lets try try again.

We are expecting snow today and friday ick.... maybe if I don't think about it, it will go away

I've got some Easter decorations up and boy...it makes me feel cheery just knowing spring is coming.

Whats shakin?

Hi ladies -

Leenie, I thought the same thing about the eclipse. Or, maybe it had something to do with the meteor? Evidently a meteor passed pretty close Monday night, close enough to see if you happened to be awake! Anyway, almost everyone was off yesterday so I'm wondering....

I'm back up on the wagon today Thanks for the hand up Sassy! Now, if I could just remember to bring my lunch to work!

See you later ladies!

Hi all - just touching base and double-posting with the Chicks in Control forum.

I spent a lot of tough time last night really thinking hard about what's going on with me - it just made me so sad. Even typing that sentence doesn't really say what I want to... suffice to say, I will be seeking some help before this binging becomes more problematic than it is now. I need to find a different outlet than stuffing my face.

Well, today is another day, and it's about taking care of myself - that's what's going on. When I feel like I can't express myself and my anxiety, I get frustrated and angry and depressed and scared - and I eat. And I forget to really Look After Myself.

After three nights of craziness, my body feels tired, bloated, weak and very, very full. Today, I am eating clean (but to my calorie limit, almost), drinking a LOT of water, and putting the first half of the week behind me.

Small steps, baby steps.

AWWww Heather So sorry you are struggling right now with this. It's great though that you realize the reality of the situation and that you are willing to get help within a reasonable amount of time. Medicating with food is so easy to do... and all I want to do today. I haven't yet, but my internal voices are battling right now. I've said it before, but it's such a mind game and I hate it. Keep checking in so we don't worry too much. You've changed physically so much in a year and gotten so many people's attention that I can see why you just want to run and disappear. Maybe you don't trust yourself and are afraid of letting them down or being embarrased if you backslide a little. Just one theory or thought. That has happened to me before. It's almost easier when nobody expects anything good from you, especially with this eating addiction. I may be way off base, but either way, I'm thinking of you.

Gotta run, but I'll try to check back later.

Heather I am very proud of you for taking this first step toward health. Please let us know if there is anything at all we can do to support you as you make these changes in your life

Goodness, that is so true. Terribly sad, but so true. Do you know, I actually lied today when someone asked me how much I'd lost - I divided my real number in about half. This is a troubling sign. Hmm... I will have to monitor this situation.

Well, this week has certainly been a case of on-the-wagon, off-the-wagon, rinse repeat.

I sorta had a repeat of Monday night last night. Sigh. This time it was caramel corn. And Chocolate at dinner. So today I have a headache, which I figure I earned.

Here, wagon, wagon...

See y'all!