Hi all,

I just had the strangest experience..

I thought I would have a reaction to not being able to have whatever food I wanted AFTER my surgery. I didn't even think about the fact that as of midnight tonight, I would not be able to eat "real" food again until after all is said and done. It didn't even hit me until about 10 tonight...strange.

I have been preparing for this for months...saying goodbye to the food that has been both good and bad to me over the years but for some odd reason I thought it would hit me Monday afternoon. I'm sure I'll be "hit" like that many times over the next few months but this one blind sided me.

I paniced, cried a bit...then when that passed, I lit a candle, had a nice "last" meal sat down, breathing and listening to the wind howl outside while watching intently as the clock clicked from 11:59 to 12:00 just hoping that I could put some emphasis on the passing of an era. Therefore, the beginning of a new one.

each click of the time filled clock
counting an end and a beginning
burns the old in loving memory
born the new in hope filled antisipation

thank you for listening,

Angela

Angela your not going to have to give up food, especially the ones you love, your just going to eat less of it and have control... and thats an awesome feeling...control. There are some foods that you won't be able to tolerate that is true but don't look at this as your giving up things....look at this as you are going to gain control over those things. And its just a matter of time when you'll be eating regular again with that control. I know right now this does not make sense, but when all is said and done, and your sitting at the table eating regular food with that control, a light bulb is going to go on over your head and your gonna say to yourself AHHHHHHHHHHH so thats what Leenie was talking about... THIS FEELS AWESOME... I AM IN CONTROL !!!!

Hang in there hon and be positive... just concentrate on all those cute outfits your gonna get to wear soon and how good your going to feel.





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Hang in there sweetheart...there are alot of emotions that come with this as I have been learning as of late.....

Chrissy

You are not crazy. I am a month away (tomorrow) and have went through a vast variety of emotions about food. I travel alot with my job and had a few weeks that I made myself miserable with food, because I was eating all sorts of stuff. I kept thinking OMG this is the last time I am going to be able to eat this. All I managered to do (yes ate some really good food) was gain almost 10 lbs of the 25 I had lost. If I learned anything from all the reading here it is that I will get to eat the foods I love again. I just have to change the WAY I eat them.