Uhhhh no I am not liking the deflated balloon picture in my head :-O LOL! Oh wow, I better brace myself then, I think I might need therapy
yeahhhhhhhhh that definitely looks soooo comfy!!! Mmmmm! I can smell the relief from here!

Looks like I will have a small daytrip tomorrow, since I'm out in the boonies and have no earthliest about where the nearest red bullseye is from here. Uniboob here we come!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Attitude - well I gotta admit, the lightness (or should I say lightheadedness - ya know redheads are dingiest!

) is more for me than anything else. Truth is, I'm really down on myself alot, constant worrier, I have anxiety disorder if you can believe that one, and - well - just depressed most of the time. People think I'm such fun to be around, but there are multiple hats I wear, all truly me, I just don't let the demons out that often; I find they calm down more if I keep em in their cage. This board, well heck the whole site, is such an upper for me. I spend wayyyy too much time here, but I just don't have the know how to post and answer as many questions people have as I'd like. Cause after all, I'm learning right along with everybody

I was a lot happier when my pic was taken (----> profile). That pic was before all the drama last year happened, probably around March right before we moved the first time. James helps; I tell you, he is a true-to-life Jim Carrey LOLOL, he is just such a hoot!!! He is just like, the total opposite of me...he's so laid back, and calm about everything, and I'm like the "donkey on edge" (okay, sorry been watching Shrek today) Yes I am a grown up that likes cartoons. I admit it.

Seriously though, I'm so envious of James, but in a good way - does that make sense? He is everything I wish I was personality wise; well he is the way I used to be. I think the weight has a lot to do with it. But off that soapbox - that's in another post of mine

This board though, does so much good for people like me....it helps lift my spirits and keep me focused, and - well - gives me support, ya know...gives me the courage (and laughter) to face another day; hope - yes that is the word I was lookin for. Argh so didn't mean to vent. but I do feel a little better, So thanks!!!
On a side note, yes James would love me to be happy and healthy, but the sores get really old with him, and I feel his pain. I'm supposed to be the seductress right...and instead, I'm walking around like I have this telephone pole up my woo woo cause I got a sore between my thighs, or I look like I got a mummy-boob with bandages dangling from a sore. I think it'll help him too, the powder, cause he gets sores in his thighs too.
thank you all so much - you guys rock!!!