**** all! My name is Ann and I am 27.
When I was younger I was a chubby little girl that was put on various diets to lose that weight, I was always the odd one out.
I found myself over eating and binging after school especially when no one was around. I would just eat almost everything in sight, anything.
As I got older it continues and with certain boyfriends it was a non stop food vacation.
Around my 22nd years I dropped tons of pounds, and I think it was due to the part I was always busy living my life and not time to stop and look at the refridgerator.
Within the past two years I gained 4 dress sizes and have found myself back in that hole I was in during me early years up until my early 20ties.
I find myself binging and eating anything I see.
Its non stop and after I feel ill, guilty and upset.
I am always annoyed at myself and am really uncomfortable with my body.
I squeeze at my fat, get mad everyday at myself BUT continue to eat when no one is around and when im in my room at night.
ITS DRIVING MY NUTS.
I tell myself "SELF today you will eat only three meals, drink water, eat healthy"
AND BY 11am I am eating chips, cheese, bread, cookies, chocolate, anything I LOVE! I lovethe taste of things, I love eating them and enjoying them.
I hardly ever feel hunger and the weight is creeping up and making me feel worthless and UNATTRACTIVE.
I want to be happy, non dependent on food. I want to be healthy and vibrant like i used to be.
I want to feel good in my skin and have fun, live life without this huge dark cloud over me.

WOW I am getting it out and it feels good.

I think thats about it and I think I belong here.

I definetly have realized I need support but from others I dont know.
I dont want my immediate family and friends to know.
I want to deal with this through support of others going through it.

I need to get back to that place that I was in before when I didnt feel this weight of overeating, its like a constant war.

AND That is me!
I hope I can find what I need within this forum as well in various other materials.
Thank you ahead of time.

Paz you came to the right place. Nothing but info and extremly supportive people here. Good luck and much success to you.

Welcome Paz!! Your in the right place for support and somewhere to air your feelings. I know where you are coming from I too am also a comfort eater and have a tendency to binge, just coming here really helps i think. Remember not to be hard on yourself, just think small changes, baby steps, then your more likely to stick to healthy eating for life.
Good luck!!

Hi Ann, and

Have you explored our "Chicks in Control" forum? It might be a good place to get some advice and support from others who struggle with binge eating.

Otherwise, look around and keep posting. Can't wait to get to know you better.

See I love this place already

I am in need of support and I was reading around before I joined and I saw all the support that was given out.

I look forward to getting to know you guys and sharing advice as well.

Hey Paz & ! Best of luck to you!

Hi Paz,
I just saw the title you gave this post and right away I felt connected. I so can relate to what you said about binging, not caring just eating whatever I wanted to, then after that, the guilt sets in. I don't understand why we do that to ourselves. We know better, we know what will happen to us as soon as we take that last bite, but we still do it. You are so brave as to what you posted. I can tell you really want it to change and you know what ~ it WILL. You will get so motivated just by clicking into the different forums here. It's amazing how excited and geared up I get just by reading from others who are where I am or who have gotten to where I desire to be!!
You can do this!!
Whenever you feel like binging or eating something you know you probablly shouldn't eat, come here first and just start reading anywhere in one of the forums. See if that doesn't stop the urge to binge !!!! I bet it will ~ I know it will cause it does for me!! LOL
God Bless,
Tari

Good morning, Paz, and welcome! I read your post and could have been reading about myself. I have lost the extra weight....again....and have sworn that this time it's for good. Again! This up and down weight gain, loss, gain, and loss, and feeling guilty all the time can't be good for us. Tari, you sound like a great motivator, so I'll just say "ditto." Faerie, love the Churchill quote - so true. I'm new here myself, and love the site. I log in every morning for a dose of inspiration - gets the day off to a good start. We're all in this TOGETHER, and together we're stronger than when we try to go it alone. Best wishes to all, and here's to SUCCESS!
Connie

Welcome! I am new too, and like you, have been "chubby" since I was 7. I feel very connected to you as well, almost like you were telling my story! I still haven't figured out how best to navigate the site, but I'd love to keep in touch!

You couldn't have said it better!

I love this site already - day 2 and I'm hooked. You are all so wonderful!

Hello and Welcome Ann! I am using the 3 meals method, and sure can relate.Don't give up and keep hanging in there.. Best of luck with your efforts!!