Last week was my first week on my 'diet' ( lifestyle change) . I actually did very well. Walking, watching my cals, drinking tons of water etc... lost quite a bit of weight as well when i weighed in on fri am. I am in the UK, and the rest of my family is in the states. Friday my mother had a full mastectomy as well as a hernia operation... i was on pins and needles all day worried about her as she is older and not in the best health.. anyhow, once i received the phone call she was doing great and went thru the operation fine, it's like i lost all the stress from worrying, but i also had KFC... as if that werent bad enough i had KFC on sat as well... what is wrong with me? make it thru the worry.. lose weight, and blow all that hard work in two days and my mom is fine? i have no idea why i did that.... sunday i got back on track... but im so scared to look at the scale.. dont wanna see the dmg i have done.. think ill wait till this fri.. work real hard this week, and hopefully i will still lose at least a pound or two...
anyone else sabatage themselves like that? even when you get 'good' news?

flabtofab,

First off, I hope all is well with your mother and that she is healing well from the surgery.

Now on to your question of sabotage......OH YEAH, I am constantly doing this to myself over and over again.

I have been horrible at consistency and therefore do not get far before I fall off and then I let myself continue off track until I get sick and tired of being sick and tired and then I start the cycle all over again. During that "off track" time I can get pretty out of control.

My last hiatus, I was down to 302 and almost out of the 300's (very close to my first goal) but then I let the down time get the best of me and I ended up back where I started at my highest of 320. Back to square one again!

It is also very easy for me to eat through the good and bad emotions. On one end it is a comfort through the bad and some what of a celebration with the good. I can find a reason to eat through pretty much anything.

I know for myself I need to learn how to cope in other ways other than food. Journaling is a good release for me but I tend to not do it to often (pure laziness- another one of my downfalls), even though I know I should. It is a healthy alternative and really helps me to tune into myself and my emotions instead of tuning into food.

For instance, I have been feeling really down & out lately (right now specifically) and I should of written on this board or journaled first but instead I turned to food and ate. Grrrrrr, I have some very instinctual and unhealthy patterns I need to break!

But no matter what, I will not give up!

Wishing you all the Best

"been there, done that" -- that's my life story!! You just need to find another outlet for your emotions -- take a walk, make a phone call, go buy your mom a card, something!! My family has had a rough summer -- brother in law had a stroke, aunt dying of brain cancer, dad had a quadruple bypass -- all of which apparently sets off the "eat like a cow" part of my brain. I'm slowly working my way out of it and finding ways to channel my stress, emotions elsewhere -- you had a great week, that will stay with you -- really!! Just remember, it's a work in progress -- there will always be good days and bad days, that's life -- the trick is to work on having more good than bad!!!

Good luck.

Eating well and taking care of ourselves is a skill. It is something that has to be developed over time. Why do we expect ourselves to be perfect right away? We live one way for many many years, and then expect to change everything overnight and have it stick. In my mind that is an unreasonable expectation of ourselves that can only lead to failure.

Don’t be so hard on yourself. You are going through something really rough. One or two "bad" meals doesn’t negate what you last week because you are making huge improvements. The fact that you got back on track after two days is great. It could have been more.

Hey! Don't let a flub get you down. At work, we had a big pizza party to celebrate something and I felt so guilty because I ate a slice of pizza. My doctor told me... don't worry! To slip every once and awhile is a good thing because it shocks your system.

Reward yourself every once and awhile. Just get back on the horse of after you're done.

I hope your family is doing well.

Jen

Flabtofab....
first off...throw the scale in the closet and forget about it for a while. The scale can be so mean lol. Don't even look its way..even if you hear it screaming from the closet.

2nd..throw Mr. stress in with the scale in the closet. Stress is soooo harmful. He deserves to be in time out.

3rd...throw Mr beat my self up in the closet as well. We all fall off the wagon at times. And Mr stess is great for helping. They deserve eachother.

Since your mom is ok...you can focus back on you. Don't beat yourself up and just continue as you did before mr stress came along