However, I love the fall. I have been so preoccupied for the past 40 days (yes, I'm counting and I know it's pathetic
), I haven't stopped to enjoy it. But today I went out and raked leaves for about 45 minutes. It felt great being out in the crisp air, with the wind blowing, and the smell of fall all around me. I got out of breath quickly, but I expected it since I have been such a slacker lately. But going out today and doing that made me feel ready to start getting back into a schedule. It's so nice out, I just want to walk. I actually feel motivated to right now. I feel horrible for letting the past month and then some go by without so much as thinking about dieting or exercise. I know I have a terrific excuse, but it just makes me feel like I have lost control of yet another aspect of my life.After this lovely Halloween day, I am determined to start exercising again. At the very least, I can take a walk and have some "me time" while I enjoy my favorite season. It is quickly coming to an end, and I am sick and tired of having absolutely no control over anything in my life.
