After three months of hard work I went on another business trip, worked too hard, drove too much, exhausted myself. On the road I didn't feel like exercising although I did a little walking. But I blew it on eating, in the 1-1/2 weeks I was gone I hate fast food including the most EVIL of all, french fries! Now I've been home two days and I can't seem to recover, I'm just beat. Last thing I want to do is exercise. Today I went to Wendys and got a big juicy burger and fries, sat around doing nothing. I'm so disgusted with myself.
My goal is to be super fit in six months, my birthday is looming in March, I'll be 40. I was weight training, lost over 10 lbs in a few months, was feeling so good and now I just feel like ****. I know I need to delegate more so I don't have such long trips that lead to this exhaustion. But I don't know how to "snap out of this." Worse thing I did last night was drink a bunch of wine and eat junk, couldn't sleep, woke up worse then before.
How to get back on track? Back to journaling and writing down foods, and exercise seems to have worked in the past. I don't want to do "this" again, get all excited, lose weight, tone up just to sit around moping and pigging out. Last winter I did that and put on 20+ pounds. I guess they call it yo-yo dieting. I want to be fit for life. Ok, even if I messed up the past few weeks, it wasn't as bad as the years when I really ate junk food. I slipped in some nutritious meals. I think I know why truck drivers are fat because one gets so exhuasted from driving - comfort food is so inviting, not salads after 8-10 hour days. I did buy a cooler that'll plug into my car for the next trip. So I can pack healthy snacks. And I'm going to write a list of what I can eat while traveling, what restaurants, what items. I'll throw in a few cheat meals that aren't high calorie.
I just want to feel like I did a month ago again, does eating right and exercising affect our energy levels and moods this much? It's like night and day, I know I was feeling 50% plus better about me, life... so there's no choice is there but to get out of my funk/exhaustion and back to what I was doing. I mean I've blabbed about my fit by 40 goal to everyone and I am going to DO IT. I am. I am going to be in better shape then my skinny fat 20s. Six months, here we go...


