I've generally always been on the highish to medium side of normal weight -- curvy you could say. Consequently I've gotten used to that shape and have never strived to be the thin type. Not sure if that's just some sabotage thing or what, but I've always feared losing my curves, but at the same time would think I looked fat when I had the curves. Silly me!
I started strength training many years ago as a purposeful strategy to try to increase my metabolism because I've always had quite a large appetite. So I figured the more muscle I have the more my body will burn at rest and the more I can get away with eating without gaining fat (this proved to be true from my RMR test, which said I had a higher than normal metabolism). Often I thought I looked pretty good and toned but other times I thought I looked too beefy in certain shirts, especially the tube top shape where there are no straps around the shoulders. On the other hand, the muscles have made me look even more curvy (bigger more shapely butt and boobs) and I was happy about that result.
I want to be curvy and feminine but toned with as flat a stomach as I can get (lipo maybe? LOL) with as big a butt as possible while still retaining that flat stomach.
But I've decided (now, while writing this) to be happy with myself when I reach my goal and to stop thinking I look too big but then worrying or feeling funny if I lose too much. Like I could never just be happy with myself or something. What about you??



