I've always had issues with my weight and body image, even when I was a child. I gained a ton in junior high (I developed early, and didn't understand that I could no longer eat junk food and candy without gaining weight), which eventually led to me developing an eating disorder (anorexia). I struggled with this until about two years ago, when I managed to overcome my ED. Unfortunately, I put on a whole lot of weight during recovery (I went from 85 lbs to 160 in under a year). Going from underweight to overweight is NOT a solution, even if I no longer struggle with the same food issues I did back then (I've never been COE or a binge eater, the drastic weight-gain was caused mainly by my metabolism shutting down during my ED).
And now I want to get back down to a healthy weight, doing it the healthy way. Obviously, my biggest fear is that this will transition back into an eating disorder, so I've been taking several precautions that will hopefully prevent this:
1) I've spoken with my family and my doctor about it, and asked them to intervene if they think my habits are becoming unhealthy. If it's not too much to ask, if any of you guys notice that my dieting is becoming dangerous, I'd really, really appreciate it if you said something.
2) I won't be counting calories. Instead, I'll switch from eating unhealthy stuff to eating plenty of veggies, fruits, skinless chicken and tuna. Instead of eating less, I'll eat smart.
3) I've found several websites that offer fitness guidelines, so I'll be able to get enough exercise without over-doing it.
4) While I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't interested in the aesthetic side of losing weight, I'm going to try to keep my focus more on getting my body healthy than looking good in a bikini.
My current weight is 149lbs. I'm 5'1, so that isn't exactly a healthy weight for my body. My goal weight is 110lbs, although I'll be happy as long as I can get back down into a healthy BMI, and feel good about myself.
Anyway, I'm glad I found this forum. It'll be a blast getting to know you guys.
