Good morning. Let me start by saying that I took CJ's post to heart. I agree that sometimes we get off track here. I usually try to at least mention something about my weight, weight loss or my weigh-in in each post but I'm as guilty as anyone. The thing is that EVERYTHING in my life seems to revolve around weight and weight loss and food, etc. When something goes wrong at work, I stress eat. When I celebrate my birthday, I talk/think about what I'm going to eat. When I plan for the upcoming holidays, I think about food first and everything else seems to come secondary. Do you know what I mean?
But as I said, I'm guilty of getting off the subject and I'm going to try to get back on. You're right, CJ, when you said that newcomers looking here are looking for weight loss issues, ideas, support, etc. and they might not get that. We always try to welcome new people personally but I can see how someone coming here for the first time might feel left out and not know who/what we're talking about when we talk about our personal issues.
Having said that, I had a TERRIBLE weekend

involving ice cream, chocolate, pasta, Burger King, this fabulous french onion dip and lots of other no-no's.

I was completely out of control. Part of the reason ("excuse") is that I was celebrating something in my life. I'll get into that in a moment. But I have to tell you that I'm scared of how and what I ate. I guess I just don't understand why I do it. I'm certainly not hungry and what I grab out of the fridge/freezer/cabinet doesn't even really appeal to me. But I shove it in my face anyway. I'm wondering if I have some kind of "real" eating disorder and not just a weight problem!

And, more importantly, I'm wonder just what to do about it.
I think I mentioned that I weighed in on Friday morning with a 1 lb. gain. At the time, I was, of course, disappointed but not panicky or anything. In fact, I even mentioned to my WW leader that I was looking forward to the holidays and the challenge of eating right, etc. Somehow that changed during the weekend and I found myself just not caring. WHY!?!?!

And how do I keep it from happening again??
OK, I feel a little better for just having said it. Especially since I said it to you guys and I know that my brilliant friends will have some input and ideas for me. And, even better, that you'll understand and support me.
I do have good news (the celebration mentioned above) to end this message with. I got home from work on Friday and found a letter from my lawyer. As of October 29, 2001, I am ... DIVORCED!!!!!

It's official after battling in court for 2-1/2 years. I read the letter and the official decree and burst into tears. I just have to call my lawyer today to dot the i's and cross the t's but I am a single woman again!!!!! I am free!!!!!
... Maybe I can use this as a new start for my weight loss efforts too..?????
Ever hopeful,
Jo.