So I was at my boyfriends house yesturday afternoon when I noticed an Oprah magazine. I dont think I had ever read one before and I glanced at the cover where it said, "Blog it". I was curious, so I opened it up and I could not stop reading the article for a second till it was over. I was very intrigued. I could not believe that there was finally a website like this one. Somewhere I dont have to feel ashamed of myself because I know Im not the only one.
Ive been fighting with weight my entire life. Being the only heavier member of my family really made it hard growing up. From being teased to hating my self and to eating my misery away. I cant even count how many times of my life I said, okay lets go on a diet and get skinny!! YAY!!! No, it never has worked that way. I am now 20 years old and still have never experienced what it is like to love my body and the way I feel. I am now the largest I have ever been, at 220 lbs. Four years ago I never thought I was skinny, but seeing myself now compared to then, I cannot believe it, I was skinny.
I keep thinking to myself, every year that goes by Im going to get bigger and bigger and looking back at this day a year from now saying,"wow, I was skinny back then." I do not want to see that again.I want to see a definate change by saying, "wow, I was fat a year ago".
