Hi Karwie!!
I'm from Saskatoon so I hope the weather there is as good as it is here today!!
I just wanted to tell you how nice everyone here is, and we as Canadians are supposed to love that stuff. lol
It sounds as though you are a little down, but I think the first and most positive step is looking for and finding support! The fact you're here and checking things out is wonderful!
I think everyone here knows how hard it can be to get a start on this journey so I'm sure you'll find loads of like-minded individuals here.
Take Care!!
Tammy