My goal in all is to go from 195 to 150 (and perhaps more, but for now I'll say 150.)
I figured it was a bit discouraging of me to list 45-50lbs as my goal, because it just seems like too much. It won't motivate me, it'll just discourage me when I look at the huge number. It just seems so bleak! So I decided that I should do it a little at a time. Little by little, I will lose the weight. 15 lbs seems like an acceptable initial goal, as long as I focus. Once I've focused on reaching that first goal of 15 lbs, I'll set another goal of 15lbs, until I've reached that too. And so on.
I think that's what I've been doing wrong this entire time... setting goals that are too high for me to reach. I need to take it a little at a time to adjust myself accordingly.
So any advice/support/and help with losing my first 15 lbs is greatly appreciated. I was going to start today, but I didn't keep count of my calories at all and ate junk like pizza and chips. Mainly because I had horrible insomnia last night and never went to sleep. I eventually passed out at 11am this morning, and slept until 6:30pm and by then my body was tired and craving junk.
Tomorrow is a new day. I can and will do it. The only thing that's stopping me is myself.
I can beat myself. I am my only enemy.


