A goose w/cumberland sauce, a duck w/kumquat sauce, lovely cooked tart green apples, roasted potatos, green beans w/ginger......... and it all ended up being gotten rid of within 20 minutes.
And the food that I did keep down still went in a calorie excess of 2,000.
I feel like the biggest and most horrible person.
My Dad cooked that lovely meal and I just ruined it in a way. And I even had this whole conversation with my dad the night before about my bulimia and my body dysmorphia and I keep promising that I won't purge and end up lying when I do.......... only to admit weeks later that, yes, indeed I HAVE been purging this whole time and NO I am not "cured" and YES I do "know" better than to do this but............... I can't help it right now and I need so much help to get over this. I am going to start seeing a special therapist for this whole mess in the next couple of months.
