Bah!! They forgot to include the installation instructions!! I have an e-mail in to the company begging and pleading for a PDF file or a fax so I don't have to wait for snail mail. I really, REALLY want to get my treadmill up and running for this weekend!

Chachee - I hate to be cliche, but ... Rome wasn't built in a day, and we are not going to recreate ourselves overnight. I think your patient and insightful approach will definitely take you through whatever obstacles you come up against. I can't speak for all of us at all, but I know that for some of us (me, in particular) weight is more a symptom than it is a cause. Self insulation, self protection, invisibility. I have so many fears and anger left over from the things that happened to me as a child that I need to exorcise - it's coming along well, if I may say so myself, but I've been here at 3FC now for nearly two years. I doubt I'd be this far along without this place, the understanding and the encouragement, information, and support. See I'm not just changing the things that other people can see - my exercise, my eating - I'm changing the things inside that no one knows are there. I think that goes for a lot of us. And as I change the things inside, the desire grows to eat better, to exercise more. And like Jolly, sometimes all those things come back to haunt me, and the "run and hide in the food" syndrome kicks in. Or sometimes the "I'm not good enough to be attractive" tapes start, and I eat out of self pity. Or heck, sometimes I just get BORED with food and I want something really super delectible and overdo it. *snicker* It's about re-learning how to be "normal" and ourselves and love who we are and be thankful for our attributes. I'm on a soapbox again, aren't I. Sorry.

Ok ok ok ok oooooKAY then. Last night. LAZY Marian. Played CoH all night with the boyfriend. He's tickled to death. I like seeing him happy again. I enjoy the game, so it's all good. Tonight I'm going to try to get daughter and self over to the horsies and work with them a bit. Heck, if I have a saddle to ride in, I'd better have a horse to put it on, eh!?!?

It's Thursday, I can smell the weekend!!

Hey all. Some good news - I played racquetball again last night, and actually won 1 of the 3 games. Woo hoo. I was so thrilled. Of course today, the ankles are screaming at me. I rode last night too. Things went better, but not stellar. Need another pair of eyes to see if they can spot what is wrong.

I am coasting right now. I haven't had time to do the reflecting I need to, to really get out of this funk. I have been hiding from it. So, I am going to accept the coasting, as long as I don't take steps backwards. I will take time to figure out what is going on and why ( smelly weekend anyone?). And will be kind to myself.

Maybe for me too, part of this is adjustment, and my subconscious trying to avoid change. I am making major changes in my life. Changing to places I have never really been. We all know change is scary. Even if it is change for the better. An uncomfortable known is "better." I don't know. I just know I need to figure it out.

Have a good one all.

Hello all.

Nothing new here, really. Just wanted to check in and say hello.

It's really raining outside and I just love that kind of weather. Reminds me of growing up in Oregon.

Raven: No soapbox there, just the truth. I know a lot of us have issues buried deep inside that contribute to the weight gain. I have been working on it, but, for me, seeing the changes outside is a reminder of the change inside. Like you said, the weight is a symptom of what was wrong and I know what was wrong. Now I just need to move on, love myself, and realize some things are not in my control.

Weight is in my control and I am choosing to control it. I'm tired of being control by it, I want to be in the driver's seat!

So, great job on the raquetball, Jolly. You ever been hit by one of those little balls? That is my fear and why I don't play. I'm a volleyball freak, and at least I can see that thing coming and get out of the way if it looks like I might get smacked in the head!

Happy Thursday.

Chach

I've been hit by both! Somehow that never stopped me from playing either if I got the chance, but I prefer raquetball. Hmmmmm... I wonder if there's anywhere around here reasonbly priced to play. I wonder if V would enjoy it? Hmmmm..

Hey all. Just wanted to stop by and say I'm alive, though barely. I have no Internet connection since my computer crashed. I'm using an old one that I can get line mail on but no Net and no html capabilities.

Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they did and it means a massive and immediate reduction in my income. Still, I'm going to look for the good in this, even as I'm reeling. Well, in fact, I'm not reeling. I've gotten so good at this.

Am keeping a no-sugar challenge up but the weight is coming back on because I haven't been able to exercise. Really feel bad.

Well, hope things are going well for you all here. I really wish I could get on the Net but I'm rarely near a computer now. Take care everyone!

Good morning all. I did make it to the gym this morning, which is a good thing. My goal for the weekend is to take the time I need to reflect, figure out what is wrong, and make a plan. Though I am on call for work this weekend, so I also hope to have a quiet weekend.

Red, hope things improve soon. Everyone, have a wonderful weekend.

Good morning everyone, and afternoon to you, Red.
Not much time today, as we are heading away for the weekend, overnight. Always the ultimate challenge for me, that's my biggest downfall. I shall "use the force" or BAT or whatever to keep me sane and on program!
Just finished a response on the Core support board for ww people and it struck me, truly as something I wanted to share with you all. I was responding to someone else's post, but my response truly wasn't only for HER, it was for me as well. I need to do this, just as much as she does.
At any rate, I shall cut and paste it here, then I have to get rolling! Take care, will be back tomorrow night, might not be back here until Monday????
Use the Force!

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Janette, LJ, responded to you, not me. Neither she nor I can address your ultimate question. However, you must "use the force, Luke".... my Star Wars phrase for the week! The force, is a zenlike feeling that a person can achieve when they are working towards a goal. This force is kind of like hypnosis and allows us to walk away from the chocolate, walk away from the French Fries and choose better choices. This force gives us strength and courage to go through each and every day and add some activity.
You must ask yourself, are you TRULY satisfied with 166 vs. that written goal you have under your signature of 150? Have you consulted height and weight charts and do they say, for your height, that 166 is a good and healthy weight?
You must not allow the "dark side" to sway you into thinking that your body has "leveled off to a weight you should be at". You have lost water weight, some initial weight and here is the time for truly hard work and committment. You must use the force to take a serious look at what you have been eating. Journal, measure, work out, walking, parking the extra few spaces away at the end of the parking lot, taking the stairs, etc. The force is always with you, my dear. The dark side is forever there, lurking, and it can be like the devil in terms of swaying your thoughts.
May the force be with you all today!
Linda, using her "lightstick" to ward off the dark side from coming into her life
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