Chirsty: I am no longer worried--I thought you were not going to eat ANYTHING! Good luck!

Help! The halloween candy is calling my name! It is almost 10pm. I had a snack 30 minutes ago so this is NOT about hunger. I just think I might need a PB cup... (need? lol)

If I let myself have one, will it just be one? The stupid thing is that it won't even taste that good--I know this.

What am I going to do with all this candy!?!?! I can't throw it out, the kids will kill me!

God, I hate these obsessive thoughts! Why can't they go away and leave me alone!!!!!!!

Karen, don't do it!! One PB cup (at least in my experience) is never just one!!

Eat something healthy instead! Or make tea! WHATEVER IT TAKES.

I know this is probably old by now and everyone here is on topof thing but I so am not.
Lost weight about 10 years ago and it has been a constant struggle to keep of.
Now exercise every day but at one point it was twice (how mad was that)but I am also so good most ofthe day then at night I am totally preoccupied with what I am going to eat -so good to know I am not alone .Why on earth does this happen?I am so jealous of my husband who eats his evening meal and goes to bed 4 hours later having not eat another thing.

we are all here to help/listen. my husband is so tiny! hah! he can eat 3 pizzas and not gain an ounce! ugh....i understand, but, keep your chin up and come back here, there are lots of good folks here to lean on!

fw37, Hi, I know what you mean. I've only been maintaining for 4 mo. and it is a constant struggle. you have been doing it for 10 yrs. That's great! I get hungary every night around 9pm. I grab a few grapes and carrot sticks, it helps alot. Don't give in and keep up the good work!

Thanks for your positive comments-my hubby is lovely but seems to think it is easy to just stop(darn men).He also thinks that I should not worry about my weight-what are they like?Will be back for sure.

fw37, I think men don't take weight loss as seriously as women do. It's not easy to stop! Mine didn't care too much about eating healthy all his life and he never got real heavy from it. Sooo lucky! He found out he had borderline high cholesterol, and the doctor told him he should excersize and watch what he eats, even then he didn't listen. Now a year later he is trying and we take walks together every day. He doesn't think there is anything wrong with the way I was binging and also doesn't care how much I weigh. They just don't care!!

The halloween candy on the counter in our front office had had my undivided attention all afternoon. Three fun sized mm's and a starburst later and I'm begging for help! I wish I could just go out there and toss it all in the bin! Do you think that would be rude? Do you think ppl will get pissed if I do that?

Hi, I'm new, and I'd really like to join this thread. Having read the experiences in this thread, I realized I'm definitely a starve-then-binge girlie. I used to be a starve-and-starve girlie, but then my ex boyfriend would put huge plates of macaroni cheese in front of me for supper, so unsurprisingly I turned into what I am now, which I didn't think was binging, exactly, but... well.

How awful, to be in denial like that... I mean, it makes a lot of sense: I still have leftover anorexic habits but now they're punctuated with the most unbelievable, incredible binges, week-long things. (e.g. I went with my hubs to see his friends in Spain, and I ate so much during that week that they said I could eat more in a meal than the two men combined. Which was true. I could.)

But I just thought it was a lapse in self-control. I didn't label it as "binging". You're witnessing an event here, ladies... I was reading this thread casually, thinking, "I'm not really a binger, but it might be helpful to read," and eating my bologna sandwich, and I suddenly thought, "Man, I don't think one sandwich will be enough, I'm going to eat five of them and I won't be able to stop myself..." This is a normal sort of thought for me, so I tried to deal with it as I normally do: finish the sandwich, park my arse on a seat and not get up for ten minutes until I don't feel the need to eat every single slice of bologna in the world.

You can imagine what happened next: as I was eating, and subsequently parking my rear, I saw the exact same thing in the posts I was reading. And then, "Oh my god I really AM a binger, just not willing to believe it!"

So I guess you'll see me around here sometimes.

lost - My heart just bleeds for you... When reading your posts I felt like crying. You're such a brave person and I just want to give you a hug! Hang in there.

Nenu, I hear ya, I realized I was a binger only after a few months. So I'm trying to cure the problem now before it gets worse. 3fc really has helped me get past it, I'm binge free for 3 days now. Just remember it's never to late to try and stop, tomarrow is a new day!

fruitlady - For years and years I just labeled it, "a lack of self control", or "disordered eating" or something that was a general label for a very specific issue. But now that I think of it, it really is the sole reason I'm now ~172 lbs rather than 110, like I was during my teenage years. I'm not a junk food junkie; I like it, sure, but my favourite foods are "good" food. I'd much rather have a sandwich made of thick, grainy whole wheat bread, chicken, avocado and homemade mayonnaise than a McDonald's burger, for example. But I'd have nothing to eat all day and then THREE lovely sandwiches, or a lovely sandwich, a big plate of macaroni cheese with homemade cheese sauce and a homemade chocolate lava cake, for example. ALL AT ONCE. Which must be 2500 calories or more.

The reason I came back to the thread so soon is to tell you ladies what happened at dinner tonight.

Today for breakfast and for a late lunch I ate a bologna sandwich with light bologna, fat free cheese, light mayo and light bread. (I don't know the calorie count but they're 4 WW pts each.) Tonight we went to dinner at a lovely restaurant which has the most gorgeous, biggest spinach salad in the world. I was very pleased with myself for getting the dressing on the side.

But then I had a bread roll with butter! And then a 3 oz piece of my hubs' steak! And then I wanted dessert! And when my hubs (who had a headache and who wanted to go home) finally vetoed dessert, I meekly asked him if I could get TCBY on the way home! (A child's size is cheap - 2 pts.) And he said, "You'd just be throwing away points. It won't be worth it."

Bless his heart. I don't know if that sounds like a lot of food (which it doesn't when I write it down), but you have to believe me when I say this spinach salad comes on a platter that is larger than my head. It's HUGE. MAMMOTH. If Godzilla were to eat spinach salads, his would be the same size. Bloody ****, if Godzilla WERE a spinach salad, it would be the same size.

All the time the words were coming out of my mouth, I was hoping he would say no. NO, YOU CANNOT EAT MORE. Because I couldn't say no to myself.

Edit:
I just realized I didn't even tell you chickies everything I ate for dinner... I also had 1 dinner roll, about 1 tsp of the whipped butter, and I polished off my husband's cooked spinach from his plate when he was done! I didn't even remember I'd had those things.

Does anyone else get this? The memory-wipe afterwards?

At least yor husband seems to be trying to help-mine(although is very sweet ) doesnt really see a problem.Have to admit this is probably because I hide a lot of itt so well.

Mango 30 I sometimes get that prob when people bring goodies to work and leave then lying about-its awful I end up not being able to concentrate.I am determind to stop it though not really because of my weight which is ok but I am so so sos sick of it filling my thoughts.KEEP POSITIVE Mango