She hates me. Lol, I've never been her favorite person because I can do her job blindfolded with my hands tied behind my back and she screws it up daily. She usually scowels...especially if its at a staff meeting. There is a lot of eye rolling, body language that suggests she is irritated...the usual.

My family does the same thing to me. I just call them out on it. "I'm not going out with you because I don't have 5000 calories and a pair of fat pants to spare this week." If they are truley your friends they will understand why and love you anyways. Can't they get there hair done with you to spend time together? suggest that instead of a food "date".

I kinda figured. I mean if she's so positive then no wonder why you would be BFF with her. lol BFF now THAT brings back memories!

It's definitely a Friday.... I think my brain is already on to the weekend. I'm so bored today.

star2be -- I TOTALLY WANT TO SEE HOUSE BUNNY!!! My boyfriend and I are going to see it, I think. And HE'S the one who made that plan!! He's such a girl, hahahaha

I'm feeling a bit unmotivated, which is stupid, because my big audition that I REALLY want to ace is so so soon. I feel like I'm looking more and more like a "normal" sized person all the time, and even though the weight isn't really dropping off, I'm feeling my clothes getting bigger (or, more accurately, they're staying the same size and I'm getting smaller!). Food choices are getting easier.....so why am I feeling so.... blah?

I'm in such a weird state of mind. It's like I want things to be happening faster. Like....pretty much everything in my day-to-day life is feeling pretty stagnant, I guess...

^ I've been feeling kind of the same way lately! (Wanting things to happen more quickly and feeling stagnant). I know that the number on the scale has decreased and I can feel my clothes getting looser, but no one else has noticed yet or said anything about it to me. It's not that I want to have a really awkward "yes, I've lost weight" moment, but the flip-side is that I still kind of feel like I really haven't lost any weight. I've lost almost 25 lbs--that's supposed to be a big deal! If any of my friends lost 25 lbs, there would be a very dramatic difference in the way they looked! And yet I look exactly the same as I did 24 lbs ago. I guess it just sucks that I have to feel all the strain of making healthy choices and resisting things that I want to eat, making myself exercise when I really don't want to, etc, and not get to see any of the benefits (yet)... Even if the scale says different, I don't look or feel like I've lost 24 pounds. What gives?! Heh.

I think I'm just a really impatient person and I want everything now, now, now! Of course I don't want to do anything unhealthy to drop weight (I would never even consider that) but it would be nice if it could happen a little more quickly... Even if I stayed the same weight on the scale but just looked different! I just have to keep telling myself that it's NOT going to be fast and I have to deal with it... I have to trust that even though it feels pointless now, if I keep losing weight, eventually my body WILL look different. Unless maybe my scale's just broken and is showing me lower numbers when I actually weigh the same! Haha.

i feel exactly the same meredith! Only i feel kinda different, but im not sure if i look different, and no one has said anything yet. Everyday its like, hurryuphurryuphurryup!

Holy MAMA has anybody tried Ciao Bella Blackberry Cabernet sorbetto??? WHEW!!! I really wanted something sweet tonight, and it's about 100 cals in a half-cup, which is a great serving size for me...I actually found I didn't want more after because it has such a HUUUUUUUUUGE flavor, but yum yum yum!

It's SO ironic after posting that message ysterday about optimism that today is going to be so difficult, it's 10 am and I can tell already. I'm feeling horribly bloated and huge from the last few days and it doesn't help that all of my clothes have just been washed so my jeans feel 4 sizes too small Then I have to go to my fathers house for the weekend (we're not close, its v awkward)

Ah well, I plan to stay on-plan regardless. I know alot of you look forward to your weekends so I hope you all have a better one than me. And that my scale goes back down by Monday *fingers crossed*

One of the things I love about European restaurants is that they don't automatically dish a lb of fries on your plate if you order a sandwich. If they arrive on my plate, oh yes, they will be eaten, but if I have to order them separately I have no problem skipping them.

I don't know what's been going on with me lately, but I've been having these crazy cravings for McDonalds breakfast with a big ol iced coffee to wash it down. Every day I'm wanting this. I had it once last week to see if that would make it go away but nope. Woke up the next day and still craving. Maybe I'm going through some funky hormonal swing. Who knows?

Ugh! It's 9 am and I'm wide awake. I didn't go to bed untill after 4 so I have no idea why I'm up. But I'm up and I feel like crap. Probably all the crap I ate and drank last night. I normally never have more than 2 drinks but I got hammered last night. I feel like @ss. But on the plus side I'm pretty sure I got vanilla ice's number... Ice ice baby!

Sounds like everyone is doing really well and i just wanted to say congrats!!! and stay positive i am getting ready to head back to school in boston and will officially start my regimen...I am all over the place now and trying to stay focus but once i am settled in school everything should be fine...i am excited about starting this process and one of my best friends (who looks perfect btw) is starting the process with me so i am excited fall 08 is time for change!

Good news! I (kind of) got a job! I've been trying SO hard all summer to get a job, with absolute zero success... I had basically given up at this point because even though I go back to school in just over a month, I figured no one would hire me for just a month. And I was basically right, but I DID manage to wrangle a babysitting job until I go back to school! Yea! The pay isn't great, but at least it's not taxed, heh. I start Monday, watching a little boy for two hours after school every weekday. Wish me luck! I'm just glad I'll finally be making some spending money for school... I have a regular job there (working in the school library! ) but I was worried that I would go totally broke before the end of the summer, and not have any spending money for school.

Then again, I guess if I don't have money, I can't spend it on junk like I usually did last year... It's funny - kind of ridiculous/embarrassing, actually - how much money I wasted on food and snacks, etc when I was at school... Almost every day I'd buy some "juice" (the sugary stuff, not real juice heh), a coffee drink, chips, frozen meals, candy, or some kind of junk at our convenience store. It's just so... Convenient! Lol. But I'm going to try to quit that this year--if not cold turkey, then at least by the end of the first quarter. It's cool to know that I'll probably be able to save sooo much money by not buying junk for myself all the time!

I posted this on featherweights, but it's probably more relevant here. I've been slowly starting to hang out on this board because the feathers seem to be slowing down. Anyway I just moved across the country to start a master's program in public health.

since moving to a "college town" i bought a bike... i prefer not to drive too much and quite honestly it's too dang hot to walk everywhere like I did at home. So i'm a bit shaky... I've never ridden a bike before. Today we had a graduate workshop and my department met at a different building for lunch. One of the ladies who has been here for awhile was nice enough to bike over with me and show me where this building was, but it was the most humiliating experience for me. I've been doing half decently with the riding, but somehow got nervous or something riding with someone else. Not only did I have to stop and get off several times, I RAN INTO A LIGHT POST. Seriously, smack into the thing. I felt completely defeated and deflated and honestly wanted to cry. Best, I am still mastering the bike lock thing so I had to get help with that, too. This lady was super-nice, but I was embarrassed beyond imagination. I'm sure her 5-year old can ride a bike better than I can!

Anyway, I just needed to let that out.... tomorrow the girl I am living with is going to show me the gym she goes to - that means another biking excursion. I don't know if I can take it!

you ran into a lamp post? Man, i can imagine that would be embarassing, but if that happened to me i just wouldnt be able to stop laughing at myself I'm sure that she doesnt think you are as hopeless as you think she does. Maybe she's even impressed that you are trying

iris -- It's times like that that you just have to laugh at yourself being human. I once fell down on the sidewalk on the way out of an audition (so my hair was extra-nice and the makeup was flawless and I had on nice clothes, etc.). I didn't trip over anything or slip.....I just legitimately fell down. There were tons of people around, and I just sat there laughing for about 4 minutes. I mean....who DOES that??? Who just FALLS DOWN ON THE SIDEWALK?!?!?!

And you WILL get better, you're just not used to it yet. And, even if you're no Lance Armstrong, at least you're not driving an unnecessary HUMMER everywhere every time you need to go grab some milk, ya know?

Noooooo! Weight gain this morning. I guess the birthday alcohol binge really did it. My scale usually shows a binge about 3/4 days later so I'm hoping it doesnt go up any further. Now back to plan and some damn healthy foods.