Sweet Pea - Welcome back! ^^

Hey everybody. I'm back on track! Whoo!! My cookie cravings weren't the end of the world after all. I'm feeling much better today. I've been so up and down, so I hope I can stay up for awhile now. I'm on spring break until Monday so I'll have plenty of time to relax, finish some homework, and see my friends.

happy birthday Kristen Elizabeth :birthday:

hope you are having a great day

Campbell-

I can really understand how you are feeling. I strongly suggest that you visit your doc to review your meds, and then get into counseling. It really does help. Anf then, give yourself a break. You didn't ask for this condition, and you can't snap yourself out of it. It is real. It is so hard. But there IS hope. I agree with Sweet Pea. Find a pastor you feel comfortable with, and start a support system.

My house is also a mess, and I snap at my kids when I am down. But they know I love them, and that's what's important.

I can't give you marital advice, since my own is on the skids!!

Most important, take care of yourself. Probably the most important thing I've learned through therapy is how to control my guilt. The depression is so much worse when you throw guilt in the mix, and we do that all the time. But I'm learning to avoid the guilt trap. You CAN learn how to counter negative thoughts with more forgiving ones, and it can make the depression a little easier to bear.

Remember we are here for you. Everyone here understands. Just don't give up. There is hope. I truly believe this.

I have tried contacting the buyer but so far nothing. I am thinking they have gone off the property which is really disappointing. I just don’t have the enthusiasm for continuing with the selling process. I need to decide whether I will hold another open home this weekend or call it quits. I am tired at the mo and feeling a bit under the weather with a cold so have put off making a decision! but i guess i will go ahead and give it one last go

jenny - hope you are feeling better soon

marcie is right there is hope. it's not always easy to see and when you are at your lowest it can seem impossible but it only takes 1 small thing to go right and then another and it starts to turn around. don't give up!!!

i heard from the buyers and they are still thinking about the house so that's better than a no!

pretty tired so off to bed now. just going to take the dogs out to make sure they both go to the toilet before bed. nite all

SweetPea, I'm glad that the buyers are still interested. At least there's hope. Have you decided where you'll move to if you sell? Of course my vote goes for country but I do see why us isolating type of people might set up a cocoon and stay there (picture me in this description).

Good advice Marcie. You're really starting to make progress in your illness with the insight you've gained.

I'm cold at the moment. A co-worker stood in the open doorway for about 10 minutes. In the dead of summer not a problem but when I had to scrape ice off my windshield an hour earlier, it's not good. I wanted to snap "Either go out or come in." So now I'm shivering and my space heater is on full blast. I'll warm up soon I hope. and today is supposed to be nice, high of 60 and sunny. Tomorrow is back to snow and rain, but I'll take a one day breather from the crappy weather.

I already exercised this morning but I'm going take the doggies for a 2 mile walk after work. I want to enjoy the weather. So that will be 5 miles today. I should sleep good.
Marie

Good Morning everyone,
Hope today is looking brighter for you all.
Sweet_pea, glad to hear that the buyers are still interested, I sure hope it goes through for you as that will be a big weight off of your shoulders. And welcome home.

Marie, congrats on all your exercise, thats great. I don't think I could get up so early to do it.

Not to much new going on here other than mornings of snow. And I guess with the stress of traveling and everything I caught a doozie of a head cold. I had to break down and take an antihistimine and was knocked out all day yesterday. At least I can breath today. Have to head into town and do a bit of shopping as we are getting low on necessities. Long weekend, so looking foreward to that. DD14 and DD16 are planning on going to the movies with their friends, unfortunatly on different nights. Hubby was suppose to leave this am for the Yukon so wouldn't be home until next week, but things might be changing there. Will have to wait until he phones and lets me know where he is.

Well I should go and get into town, don't really want to go but we do so love our eggs and milk

Take care everyone and have a wonderfull day,
K

Thank you for listening and not judging,
I have a counselor, she is also my phsychiatrist, i have an apt for the 18th-but we will still be away for Easter,
so i need to reschedule which will delay my apt more.
She raised my effexor from 150 to 225, but it isn't helping,
it doesn't help that i have pms right now..too.

Today i just rested most of the day, on the couch while Olivia sat with my and watched tv, i feel bad, but the day could have been worse i guess.


Hopefully tomorrow will be better, i'll get up take a shower etc, get the house reasonably clean,

thanks again,
Hope everyone is having a pleasant day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Campbell, just an FYI, effexor stopped working for me after a few months. My psychiatrist kept raising the dose till I was at 300 mg and it still wasn't doing anything. Maybe you should discuss a change in meds with your dr.
Marie

Thanks Marie,
i will!!

I got most of the dishes done, did some by hand, and some in the dishwasher,
i always add a little regular dish soap with the dishwasher soap..i over did it i guess, and soap came out...bubbles all over, it was kinda funny actually,
not too bad or anything.

Gave Olivia a bath too, if it was up to her she could go a month with out a bath,
i didn't take a shower though.

Olivia and my husband are outside right now riding her bike, i'd take a shower, but there isn't any hot water left anyways.

I don't know about you guys, but i hate taking baths especially, seeing all my fatness, and showers aren't as bad, but i don't like to be naked....ya know?

My mom got us an icecream maker, i was really hoping to make it out today to get the ingredients for chocolate ice cream, all i really need is sugar, whipping cream, and chocolate bar, i have vanilla, and milk already. The grocery store is only like a mile away too...

Tomorrow is another day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God Bless you all

Jenny what Marie says makes sense! also it wouldn't hurt to ask your psychiatrist to double check your diagnosis as that may check your meds. people change over time so sometimes a new med is needed

you sound much better today but the sense of hopelessness you were experiencing yday was very high. i suggest you tell your counsellor/psych it is an emergency and see if you can maybe even sneak in there before easter. most counsellors will see you in a lunch break or at the end of their workday if it is an emergency

hi to everyone else, will be back soon to reply but lovely and sunny outside so will go sit there. i didn't get up until 11.30am today tsk

i didn't do much today. i slept in, did the washing and did some reading and that about sums the day. i am pretty distressed about the barking and my irritability is extremely high. i don't know how to get away from it all. i wish she wouldn't bark so much

i am inclined to go back to the city as it offers so much more for a single person. but right now with constant headache and wanting to kill everyone and evrything any move will be too much!!! so will wait until the house sells. i do sometimes wonder if i will ever be well. sometimes i think this is as good as it gets

jenny - i love taking baths. i don't even look at my body. i avoid looking as much as possible but i usually read or shut my eyes in the bath so i don't see. baths are just so relaxing

marie - you are so good with your walks. glad you are enjoying them

keira - you reminded me how glad i am it's so mild where i live. i doubnt it will ever snow here yipee. hope you get over your head cold soon

Jenny, sounds like you had a much better day yesterday. The dishwasher bubbles were funny. Sometimes it's way better to laugh than get annoyed. Like yesterday when my smoothie blew up in the food processor - all over me and I was running late. I chose to be entertained because it was funny even though I was running late and was dripped with strawberries. Better than that, I chose not to change (so I wouldn't be late) and then at work, I was stirring my iced tea and it flew everywhere - including on the strawberry drips on my sweater. I thought it was pretty humorous. I really think the regular exercise is what is making me find the humor in things rather than being irritated. I'm so addicted to feeling more patient and relaxed that I won't take a day off from exercising anymore. So silly.

SweetPea, good luck with the barking. I've been blessed with non-barking doggies. None of my dogs has ever been a barker. Teddy Bear (a Siberian Husky and my first doggie love) would howl at sirens, though. We lived in the city and pretty near a firehouse. Every time they'd start their siren, she'd pucker her lips and howl. Once I was on the phone with a catalog person who was trying to take my order and he finally just asked, "What is that?" It was funny. I do like howling better than barking.

Hey Marcie, how are you doing?

Buddly, I sure hope you feel better. To me, colds are just a pain in the butt. You sort of feel human, but not quite.

It’s 410am and saffie just sicked up half an hour ago. I was too slow to find the key to open the door

I’m afraid I yelled at her. Well not so much at her just a loud for farks sake but she took it personally. I think jasmine is eating it I don’t dare look I’m too overwhelmed. I have decided I need extra help. I just don’t know what. Drugs if they worked else maybe a counsellor maybe another holiday. Don’t know. But my coping skills are zilcho right now.

ok i looked and jasmine ate most of it. not too much to clean up at least that's one good thing

I will talk to my friend about it when she gets back from easter. She’s the only one I can think of that might have a practical solution. I guess the doc too although I’ve almost given up on that as an avenue for help.

marie i envy you non barking dogs. i've talked to various people about it. they suggested rolled up newspapers
but i'm not convinced on that. first because it means i have to always have it with me inside or out and second because saffie is already pretty schitzy

i am in an extreme state of irritability plus i have a cold so i am feeling pretty yucky. the cold will go but i am not so sure about the irritability. that seems to be long term


marie i am impressed you are so patient and good humoured. i need me some of that!!!

SweetPea, really I wasn't very good humored a few months ago. I really, really think it's the constant exercise that has made me more calm. Patience has never been my long suit (just ride in a car with me) but somehow I've become much more calm. I swear it's the exercise or Go-Lite
or both. i'd put my money on the exercise, though.

I sure hope you feel better. Are you taking any meds and therapy? I'd talk to your dr.
Marie