Vermont, did you get your check? I think you have every right to ask for it if you didn't. You and your employer have an agreement. If you do what is expected of you, then you receive compensation on X date monthly/weekly. That's just the way it works. They need to keep up their end of the the agreement.

Today I did my shopping and some cleaning. I feel down tonight though b/c I ate so much this evening I felt ill. I thought I was just going to break down and cry from misery (mental and physical). I don't know how much more unhappiness I can take with this weight problem. I'm missing my entire life hiding and binging. I don't know how to get out of this cycle.

wow vermont i would def be asking!! or hmmm you just might not have gas to make it there until you get a paycheck...wink wink...LOL

hope-this too shall pass...i hope cause it sucks when you get feeling like that and having to hide it really does suck.....atleast your not hiding from us!!! YAAAAA

nothing much going on....for some odd reason excited for the holiday dont know why?? for once i am not even stressing over christmas at all even though we lost money i had planned on from foster care...I had arranged it so that extra money coming in dec was for christmas...but Im not worried it will work out and hey its just christmas not the end of the world...not like the electric, water, heat...so we will be ok!!

Quick FYI I hope im allowed to mention this on here..sorry if I am not...I wanted to mention to those looking for income or extra money I did find a legit and good mystery shop place by the end of the month I will have made $74 (includind reimb. & comission) for 5 jobs. If you want to know pm me your email and I can refer you. Its a nice way to get a little extra money and its places you shop (pizza places, aero, bed bath and beyond, lowes, kmart, exxon....etc..)

so yeah let me know...there are other ones that i have used but they dont have many varieties of places or anything....ok lata ladies!!

Hi everyone,

I keep thinking its Friday, boy this is going to be a long week. I usually only work one, maybe two days a week but this is my second week of having to do four days. Thankfully I have tomorrow off before going back to do the next two, my wrists and back need the break. Our new schedule comes out on Thurs and I'm curious as to what I'm doing next. The pay cheque will be nice tho.

Hope I'm in a similar boat, I keep saying I'll start tomorrow and of course never do. I was looking at some posts in the mini goals and goals sections and I'm so happy for these women as they've worked hard and are doing so great, it also really depresses me as I see these women are doing it so why the heck can't I get my act together.

Vermont I hope you got your pay. Years ago my husband was working for a small company and his cheque was usually late and more than one bounced, thats a period in our lives I never wish to repeat.

I should head off to bed.

Take care everyone
K

good morning friends I'm so glad I didn't make a big scene about my check, because dopey boss *thought* he gave it to me last Friday...he started pulling out counters to look to see if it had dropped behind somewhere...then went back to the office to call the payroll service to stop payment on that one and get me a new one...and he said "and I looked down at my desk and there it is!" and then he just tossed it onto a pile of wrapped tortillas.

Ya know, I didn't ask about it the first, second, or third day because last year he would be late in giving it to me all the time, so i never really knew what day was payday. NOW I will ask if I don't get it on a Friday.

SO at least I have it to put it in the bank today, and hey, because it was so late, golly I get another one in 2 days

hope4me, big to you. I don't know what to tell you, except that I am sure you will have a 'click' moment when you will be able to take hold and overcome.

Hope - I fell into that same place late September. I kept my posts from that day and the day after tagged, as well as my blog entries, adn I reread them frequently. Knowing where I was and how horrible I felt keeps me from letting myself slide back there. I'm not saying I'm perfect - I had snafus - but it keeps me from sneaking off to Mcdonalds and acting towards a big mac the way I would act if I was cheating on my husband. Perhaps blogging would help you? There are some great ladies that blog through 3FC, and many of them are on the forums too.

VT - I'm glad you got your check!

Budly - Yes on the LONG *** week. Sheesh.

Mom - Christmas will work out, stress isn't needed - so I'm glad you're feeling relaxed

Not to much here. I love coffee. Truly. Oh, andI almost blew a gasket last night (wait - I DID blow a gasket) because it was basically inferred that I shouldn't like IQ tests becase I'm an artist because IQ tests ony test reading and math skills. Really? I'm not even going to get into that here. Seriously - I know I'm smart, so why do I let these things bother me?

Hm... my throat hurts so I just looked in a mirror... if memory serves me correctly - white spots are bad...
Sigh.

Have a great day ladies.

mar-white spots are bad...usually strep

Not feeling like saying much...after not taking meds from fri till tuesday night I feel pretty blah. i had to send the kids outside because I knew it was better for them and for me....just blah..think im feeling over whelmed because there is soo much laundry and some other cleaning and I feel like I never get caught up on it so why bother trying...really..its frustrating...then I feel bad cause i know I can work harder here at home but theres only a few days outta the week that I am extremely motivated and kick butt and then the rest I do what I have to...ugh...thats all

was just thinking how much i dont like myself because I cant make myself do what i need to do...like my boys school was going very well until the week of my grams services and I cant seem to get back to it and do it right....i know sooo much is crappy and not right but I still dont fix it...can someone just hit me in the head with a pan PLEASE!
ttyl

all that being said I went and put the clean clothes away for the kids and cleaned their rooms and changed sheets...man the boys sheet musta been on there for a while I dont know how it snuck by me cause that is usually a pet peeve of mine I hate there being dirty sheets on the beds...I actually made my husband get up the other night so I could change the sheets...lol...but theirs looked NASTY..ok maybe not that bad but nasty to my standards...kids eating lunch then I really need to work on the boys school...ok thats bout it!

So glad I could finally log on to say:


Happy Thanksgiving!!!

this is in the evening but I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving

momof4, you might not actually see all that you DO accomplish...I hope you get over your 'blah' feeling soon! I tell ya, when I read of you cleaning until like 4:30 or so in the morning so you could wake to a fresh, clean house...I was like, 'she is my hero!'

marbear, it is very obvious you are a smart chick I hope your gasket got repaired and uh-oh to white spots on a sore throat...

hello to everyone else

DH has had a few interviews in the past few weeks, but hasn't heard back from anyone yet.

back to work tomorrow, why do days off go SO much quicker than work days!

i have been having issues trying to log on the last two days something with a busy server???
anyways....Happy Thanksgiving

vermont-You know I dont know what you said that clicked something in my brain but after I read your post I thought about it and I guess i cant expect myself to be like other together moms not dealing with depression cause of course they dont have to fight as hard to get stuff done (atleast not all the time). I get mad at myself because I can NEVER get the energy to get the stuff done but when I do I GO crazy...its like I am in zones and I have my cleaning zones and I whip thru tons of it but then when I am not in a motivational cleaning mode nothing happens... I dont know...but thank you for your encouragement

So my mom is taking me black friday shopping which shes the one that said she would NEVER go..lol...plus my dad wants to give me money to get some shopping done..so cant turn that down...he is like an m&m hard on the outside but melts on the inside...LOL

So finished my taping for BL...I cant believe I am actually doing it really I cant.. I have to put the program on the puter and put the tape together probably sat. cause tomorrow with shopping and getting the christmas tree at the tree farm AND putting it up there wont be much time and I am sure ill be pooped since I need to get up in 3 and half hours...AHHH...lol its ok about 4 hours of sleep I am superwoman remember...

So down thing from the day...when i was making breakfast my six year old jokingly said to me you fatty cause I was in his way...I coulda spit fire at him...and my husband laid into him because even if it is the truth its rude.. Then i was laying on the floor at my parents playing with my 2 year old and the cars and dad walked by and kinda kicked me with his foot playing so I rolled towards him and pushed his leg against the wall and he was like Wow its like a steam roller....My dad always joked like that growing up and i had a lot of emotional issues from him making fun of my butt, boobs, singing....which I have healed from...but really it was like all in one day everyone reminded me of how fat I really am...
I told my mom about the BL...i had to make her swear to not tell dad and not not yell or be neg about it....which she really wasnt. I told her said Really I am not losing anything to try...shes like true!

I just might just might just might lol post it on youtube for you guys to watch once its done but only for a few days for you guys to watch then take it back off!! just so I can see your thoughts...but i have to think about that...LOL

Ok I HAVE TO GET TOOO BED!!! NIGHT

Momof4, how did the shopping go? Did you get some good deals? I would love to see your BL video. That would be cool.

Black Friday wasn't too bad at work. We opened at 6am and the bulk of the madness was over by 7am, then we were just steady after that. I had some leftovers for lunch and took a nap when I got off at 3. Not much else going on here.

yeah i did get some good deals...I got the girls character shoes at 50% off and bikes at 50% off then some other bargain stuff I found along the way....My mommy bought me some shoes that actually fit..I cant wait until tomorrow to wear them!!
We got our tree yesterday it was very could at the tree farm...but we got a blue spruce and decorated it blue...its very pretty and BIG...probably our biggest tree we had to trim the top cause the start would go on it cause it was hitting the ceiling...

Doing much of nothing now...going to go do an aeropostale shop here later then making ham and cheese sandwiches for our youth fundraiser!!

Ok well catch you all lata! Have a good day!

Wow, all this chatting going on LOL

everyone.

Been fighting a stomach virus for the past week (ok 2 weeks). So far today, no "episodes" lol.

Thanksgiving was great.. lots of food, friends, family.

Yesterday I fell apart from all the work and preparing for the feast... I stayed home all day in my jamies and put up my Christmas tree I'm all set for Santa lol.

Ok.. off to iron some clothes, DD has a birthday party this afternoon and I'm such a slug.. I need lots of time to get my butt ready.

Have a great day Chickies

ok well just checking in...not much going on everyone must be gone, busy or depressed for the holiday..LOL...ok excited starting putting my video clips together tonight!!! almost done to send it in....lata