tkglenn- i would suggest http://www.pphouston.org/site/PageServer
This is all just my opinion, not mean to sound preachy- but after years in your situation, you may need to be reminded of some of your options.
I KNOW they will help you even if you just bring in a few dollars or ask to talk to a counselor. What I am confused about is, why can't you sneak out while he is at 'work' all day? Maybe he is cheating and bringing all this stuff home to you. He is going to find out, obviously if you two are intimate.
Leave and go to your mom's, wherever that is.
Make up another reason to go to the doctor or emergency room to get out of the house.
Try to get to a pharmacy or nurses station IN walgreens.
or, just plain leave. Do you really want to be with him so much that you will sacrafice your ENTIRE life for all that?
I am not going to sit here and tell you all this women's liberation stuff, but, my god, save yourself, (at least that is what I am thinking).

OH TK darling!

everyone makes mistakes... I have definitely done my fair share of things similar to what happened to you. my bf and i have been together for 6 years but we had some rocky times and I had a period of my life where I was definitely promiscious (sp) even while we were together, including someone whom I found out later had herpes. I was really lucky in that i didn't have herpes , but at some point during that time i did contract a strain of hpv - no warts but like you i need to get checked every few months. i don't know what is up with what is bothering you..though i have had similar symptoms in the past...please go see a doctor! if you have no income planned parenthood will see you and deal with a payment plan or even for free.. people who DO have insurance and still go there and those who make donations take care of the care for the folks who don't. doctors tend to scare the heck out of you as far as what it could be but you will feel better knowing for sure.

Amy:

Here is a link to my blog entries about Will's allergies. We have been reasonably clean eaters forever. Always learning more though. Will did not sleep for two years. It was miserable. He was hyper and crazy when he had dairy.

http://lifewithanna.blogspot.com/search?q=allergy The April 22, 2007 post is most relevant.

He does not seem to have many chemical sensitivities. We do not do all of the vaccines; in fact, we only do one combo. For example, red dye, which is a huge issue for many kids, does not seem to bother him. An ice cream cone makes him a terror.

Meara was tested, but it was not p/n testing, and I still wonder about her. She is the dairy queen. Of course, she just may be in the trying threes. Deep breath...

mj~I'm having trouble trying to concieve too. We've been trying for 5 years and still nothing. I know how you feel

sportmom~I was gonna watch Carrier..but it would've made me a little depressed. And its the Nimitz, lol. My dh is on the Stennis. He didnt even wanna watch it because he already knows what goes on with ships. Plus..they probably water it down. I bet they all have to watch what they say..and stuff like that. Dh tells me about being on a carrier anyways..lol. But if they show any ENs..then just remember thats what my sailor does!!

tkglenn~You should check around and see if theres like a free clinic that you could go to.

It's under the burger "customizer."
http://www.redrobin.com/home/customizer.aspx

It lets you pick your food and then alter it with whatever toppings/sides you want The Whiskey River BBQ Wrap (one of my faves) has over 1500 calories when ordered as-is from the menu At least that includes the fries, but still...

DH is still gone, and when I got on the treadmill I noticed his computer tower is missing. Maybe he left me? (I'm just kidding, his computer had developed issues over the last two days. but if he ever left, that stupid ridicoulously expensive, built it himself, computer would be one of the first things in the car.)

TK - You need to forgive yourself. Also there is no way of knowing when you were infected. It's entirely probable that DH could have infected you, unless you are his "first and only".

Those of you who are trying to conceive make my heart sad. I've never tried myself so I can't say I know what you're feeling, but it must be very painful. I hope all of you find success in your baby making ventures.

Kamuz - I love to meet people who have really made it work for them. Check out Fresno's stats, he's lost half his body weight.

Fresno - You've really accomplished a lot! I think body builders look kinda freaky too. My goal is to see my body fat percentage in the healthy range.

Speaking of which...Tanita says 42% again tonight. It's always between 40-42%, no matter what I weighted. Over the last 6 years my weight has ranged from 164 - 200 and it's always been in that range. I find that suspicous. I've had my body fat taken with handheld devices and it was 36% before I started exercising regularlly and lost the 25 pounds that I've kept off, so I think 29% could be accurate? I don't know, without doing a dunk test, there's really no failsafe way of knowing. It's just another benchmark, I suppose.

tanita is a liar! there is no way you're 42% we're similar stats and i've had a few tests that come out between 22 and 25. i am very muscular for 5'4" though, but even considering that i would think 29... NOT 42.

thank you everyone for your support. I'm just really worried it's something that isn't cureable. I completely forgot about planned parenthood. He knows about my hpv so I could just tell him that I need to get it checked per dr's orders. I don't have ANY family here so it's hard for me---really hard. My family is what I have in my house and my best friend.

Tk~ Maybe your best friend can help you out? Did your dh lose all his benefits when he got out of the military?

Definitely go see planned parenthood if that is the available clinic in your area. And I also think that no matter what mistakes you've made in the past, your life shouldn't be held hostage by your husband. You're an adult who doesn't require permission to come and go as you please. I bet you think you owe this obedience to him as a way to "make up for your mistakes" but it's just not right and it's no way to live. That's not the way an adult relationship works. Just my completely unsolicited opinion, only wanting your health and happiness. Take care of yourself honey!

I'd be really suspicious of your Tanita, too. Though average adult body fat is 15-18 percent for men and 22-25 percent for women. So when we are overweight that number could definitely be higher.But 42% sounds really excessive.

So I'm reading back a bit and had to add...all the above and in a black Under Armour tee! Gosh, when my DH comes home from the gym in one of these tee shirts I get weak! (We met at a gym 11 years ago, and it still gets me!)

Tawnya - I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now. Take care of yourself, you deserve it. Like everyone has mentioned there are many places that will help on a sliding scale. Don't waste your time second guessing what you may or may not have. Maybe it's serious. Maybe it's not. (((HUGS)))

Hey Ladies!

Wanted to check in before I headed off to bed!

We ended up going to quiznos and not seeing Iron Man.... we're going tomorrow night.

Had a really stressful night but I managed to stay under calories. Bet your tail I'll be exercise almost all day tomorrow whether it be on the treadmill or outside in the yard!

Hey Angie - to answer your question a few pages back: I'm nearly 37 and live outside of Seattle, WA - Covington, to be exact. I have 2 little girls - ages 3 & 4.

Peppers grow well in containers also! I got 20+ from 1 plant a few years back when we did container gardening.