Happy Wednesday Ladies,
Reading the posts about the 5 things you hate about yourselves is killing me! The exercise was 5 THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT BEING FAT!. It is way to easy to list things we hate about ourselves but that is not what was intended. That is way to depressing. I hope that everyone who listed the hate myself things goes back and changes it. We are all good, decent people and should NEVER focus on the negative aspects of ourselves. That serves no purpose. The point is to get angry at our fat. Angry enough to get rid of it.

Oh Nan, I couldn't imagine how you must feel after such an experience. It is hard enough to get on the scale w/o having such a shock as the one you did. But your doctor is right. You did lose 63 pounds so far and that is AMAZING!!!! Keep up the great work and you will be where you want to be in no time.

Have a great day everyone.
Suzy

Nan - I know that must've been a difficult time for you at the doctor's offc. But Suzy is right. You've still lost 63 pounds and that's incredible. I have NEVER lost that much weight, and I need to lose twice that amount. So you are my weight loss idol!

Suzy - I'm with you, girlfriend. Don't hate on yourselves, ladies! It's 5 things I hate about being fat (like not fitting into theater seats, looking bad in a swim suit...). We need to love ourselves, but not the fat! Keep us focused, Suzy!

April28 - Great job on losing 1.5 pounds! That's fantastic! For those days when it's raining, you might think about getting the Walk Away the Pounds tapes. You can walk 1,2 or 3 miles indoors whenever you want. I like them, but also prefer the gym environment. That's why I go to Curves.

Cateyes - You can still eat out and eat healthy! Especially in this day, many restaurants are catering to the low-carb, healthy crowd. For example, Applebee's has a whole menu designed for WW listing the # of points for the meals and everything. And I don't think it's necessarily bad to reward yourself w/food, as long as you can keep a handle on it after the reward!

Jansan - Good to have you here! You won't have any problem getting under 200 by Christmas. You can do it.

Can't stay long today. Wish everyone well!

Good morning everyone,
This board has been very active! That's great! It means that we are taking an active part in our quest to loose our excess fat.

I had a pretty good day yesterday. It was very busy at work and I didn't get to study as much as I would've liked. It looks like today that things are a little slower and my boss told me to take the time to study today if I needed to. I'm very fortunate that she's so understanding; after all it does benefit them in the long run.

I'm feeling a little bad about the fact that I've not been keeping my journal, and I'm planning on getting back to it today. At least that's my goal, even if it's just writing down my food and things. I really, really want to journal. I know that by writing down the things that in my heart and head, I become a much more focused person. But then, I do that hear with you guys don't I? So, even on those days that I don't take the time to write in the journal, I've still written here. Now here's a thought, maybe I should get a notebook that I can print out my posts and put them in and that could be the "thought" part of my journal. Anyone have any ideas on that for me?

Suzy: I'll try to go back and change my answers to 5 things I hate about being fat. I think my answers will be about the same. The things that I don't like about me have to do with the fact that I have excess weight.

LabChick: Ok..what you had happen at the doctors office is a downer, but look at it this way. Now you know that true number and it's just a number. Think of the scales as the speedometer in your car. That speedometer in your car only tells you how fast you are going and it's controlled by you. It doesn't have any other purpose for the car; it doesn't make it run, it doesn't make it efficient, it doesn't make the car ride nicer, it's just a measuring tool of what you are doing. That's all the scale is. You control it, and it just measures what you are doing. That number on the scale is not you as a person! I hope that helps. Someone gave me those words of wisdom a long time ago.

Holly: I'm so glad you had a nice holiday. How are you doing with your plan now? You did a great job of staying on it during the holiday.

DPully: Good luck on the steps today. Of course you can do it!

April28: I also exercise better at the gym. It's a very motivating place for me. You know it's funny because I'm there so much that people who work out beside me everyday, think I'm a fit person. I'll mention that I've lost so much weight and they usually say, I never thought of you as overweight (how could they not?!), they say they see me as someone who is there doing the same thing they are...just getting healthy and happy and they treat me as an athlete.

Terri: If I were you I would buy something really pretty and let him take me to the reunion tower. Don't put your life on hold just because of your weight. It sounds to me like he thinks you are very special and he wants to show you off.

If I missed anyone, sorry about that.

Ok..here are the 5 things I hate about being fat:
1)I miss going out to water parks and things because I hate the way my stomach sticks out in my bathing suit.

2) Being this fat makes me feel uncomfortable when I'm not dressed; what I wouldn't give to be able to wear something from Victoria Secrets...like a thong and a pretty bra.

3) It cost a lot more to find fashionable clothes. If I weren't fat I could shop anywhere!

4) Being fat stands in the way of getting the correct medical attention at times. Whatever is wrong or could be wrong is always looked at as a symptoms of being overweight! Well, you know sometimes things aren't right just because of other reasons. I've known thin people with high blood pressure, and such so while being overweight can contribute to some things we still need to be looked at as a whole person.

5) Because I'm fat sometimes I'm not taken as seriously as other people. People tend to think that overweight persons have no control over theirselves and therefore can not be knowledgeable about things. Such narrow thinking!

OK...Suzy..how's that?!

I love this thought processing by the way. Very helpful with focusing. Thanks for coming up with it!

Good Morning Everyone....

How's everyone doing today? Staying focused? Yesterday was a great OP day for me. Kept the cals around 1100. Much better than Monday. I actually feel like I am losing weight today, hope I am not dissappointed on Saturday at WI. The second job (Kohl's) is going well, still on computer training. Will finish that up tonight and actually get some floor time. Will be working in customer service. Hope I am not too tired by the time evening gets here and I bite people's heads off. I am sure that is not OP. haha

Jan - Welcome to our race! This is a great place for sincere support.

Teri - Food rewards are not good, they sabatoge your efforts and sometimes it will throw me into an eating frenzy. Go out on a date with hubby instead, to a movie or bowling. Make OP mexican food at home. It is safer that way.

April - Your exercise routine should make you feel great about yourself. You are right about not being able to eat something, and wanting it more because you can't. Seems that ends up being all you think about.

Nan - 63lbs is awesome! You still feel great about the loss, run with that thought, instead of thinking about where you are. Look ahead, not back.

Hello to everyone, have a remarkable, happy day!!

Annie

Mornin'
(((((NAN))))))), How disappointed you must have felt. Be proud of the 63 lbs you DID lose. That is a remarkable victory!!!!
Susie~ I did okay when I was busy with all the company, I have not done so well since. I am very disappointed in myself.
I did the 2 mile watp and yoga yesterday BUT I ate 1779 cal and 75 grams of fat!!!!!!
I am disgusted with myself!! I do this at least once a week and that is why my weight is not going down.I dont know why I dont love myself enough to do this right. I mostly think I am great!!
I am depressed today. I weigh in at tops and my scale says I am up 4. OUCH!!
I am off to watp!

(((((HUGS)))))) to everyone!!

Holly, You are great! You can get this thing whipped. Holidays over, now forge ahead. You rock!!

It seems that some days I am so focused on weightloss and I can even imagine myself thin again. Then there are other days where it seems like I will always be fat and am partially OK with that. Just as an alcoholic or drug addict has to be ready to change, so do we. I was wondering what the breaking point was for each of you that made you decide this is it! I am losing weight! I am sick of being fat....... I think I have had several incidences like that, but then I seemed to always lose focus. My heart trouble after my youngest daughter was number 1. The most recent thing was when I went to the movies with my twin sister last month or so. (Who by the way is thin and gorgeous!) When my husband and I go to the movies we always sit on the outside. I always get the aisle seat because it is easier to take the kids to the bathroom etc. without having to scooch in front of people to get out. We have been doing this for a long time now. If we did ever go alone we were always the first one into the theatre (that is how my husband likes it) so it was no big deal getting to my seat. I did not dare try to get back out after being seated. Well, my sister and I of course were running late. The movie was fixing to start, and needless to say we were in a hurry. NOw my sister, being thin, does not think about the little things we as overweight women think about, like size and location..... So she starts heading to some seats which are the third and fourth seat. So we had to pass in front of a couple to get to them. (THANK GOODNESS! it was not in the middle of the aisle!) I am sure some of you can see where this story is leading....
I am trying to pass in front of this couple, and I make it past the gentleman just fine...however, his girlfriend sitting right next to him had one of those huge drinks in the cupholder on her seat. Well....trying to step over thier feet, my leg brushed her drink, and her cup goes tumbling to the floor dousing my leg, feet, and I'm sure her in the process. I was absolutely mortified!! I ofcourse had to sit right next to her during the movie. I immediately asked what drink she had and I would go get her another. She was very nice about it, and insisted she was through with it anyway. My sister tried to give them some money, but they refused saying it was fine. MY sister by the way, thought this was hilarious and laughed for the first ten minutes of the movie. She would finally get settled down, then look over at me and it would set her off again. I was extremely embarrassed and had to fight back tears. Once my sister realized I was upset about it, she kept telling me to QUIT! It was just my purse that knocked her drink over, but I of course knew what had happened. It was because I was so fat. For the entire movie I remained stiff as a bored, and just folded my arms as best I could across my stomach to avoid taking up any of the girl's arm room next to me. Now I am sure I could have relaxed some and not overlapped much on her seat, but I was just so embarrassed I sat there like a statue. By the end of the movie I was extremely sore from holding the same position the entire time. I think during the whole movie I kept repeating to myself I have GOT to lose weight!! It was after this point that I no longer thought "I'm fat, deal with it" and knew without a doubt I was sick and tired of being this way, and it was time for a change.

On a side note thank you to everyone for your support. Are any of you following the Weight Watcher Core program? When I was doing weight watchers in 97 with my mom, we would go out to eat at Chili's every Thursday night after Weigh in. I always ordered Fajitas and had 2 margaritas. Every week I lost weight, so I know that it is possible to do things every now and then, as long as I stay OP for the rest of the week. This time, ofcourse I do not do the Chili's thing. But it is nice to think that I could. Never is so intimidating.... I use to say " I can't wait until I reach goal and don't have to worry about food anymore. I can just eat like a "normal" person." I look back at those thoughts and think of how naive I was. This is the way I need and will have to eat for the rest of my life. Never again will I be able to eat anything and everything I want and not worry. That is why I am fat now, and why we have such an epedemic in society concerning weight. The "normal" way of eating I was thinking about has put not only me, but society has a whole at risk for health related problems associated with obesity........ The way I am eating now is normal. It was the way I used to eat that was not.......

Teri

Hello everyone. Hope you are well. We're getting so many new people that it's hard to keep track! But hello to APRIL and to CATEYES!

Nan/Labchick:
I'm very sorry about the situation. BUT yes, you did lose a great amount. If you could lose that amount, you can do even more for sure! You are a great inspiration for all of us. Pretty soon, you'll be at 214.

Suzy:
Thanks for reiterating that. It was depressing writing the five things but I did it wrong LOL! So I will re-do my list.

What I like about myself:
1) My crazy hair.
2) My almond shaped eyes.
3) My wonderful relationship with DH.
4) My patience to bargain shop.
5) My desire for the morality of youth.

Things I hate about being fat:
1) Cute clothes just don't look so cute on me.
2) Thighs that rub together.
3) Not wanting to look people (specifically attractive guys) in the eye 'cuz I know what they're thinking.
4) Not being able to wear the more fitting shirts that I used to.
5) Not liking to eat in public alone...afraid people are thinking I'm stuffing my face!
6) Walking into Lane Bryant. I know that's strange...but it's usually the first place I go inthe mall. I want to shop at the Limited again!
7) Being at a funky, in-between size. "regular" sizes are too small, "plus" sizes can be too big and frumpy and make me look even fatter.

Reasons why I deserve to lose weight:
1) Better health overall.
2) Then maybe I can concieve.
3) All the cute clothes I could wear!
4) DH says he finds me sexy but I want to believe it myself.
5) So I can do it and help others who are struggling.

OK that's better lol.

I'm doing okay today...went to the gym. I wore my new heels to work with my pants instead of the clogs I wear...I feel like I look good today. Funny how one little thing can change the way I feel. I baked reduced fat biscuits last night and had one for breakfast with a fried egg white. Not the best thing, but at least I took the time to make something. I got to the gym earlier than usual and was able to finish with lots of time to spare before work. I like working out early. It makes me feel like my day isn't just for going to work...it makes me feel like work is secondary instead of my reason for waking up. It is 11am and I'm feeling a bit tired...still having trouble getting to sleep at a decent time. Tonite will be the night! I'm going to be ASLEEP by 10p. There is nothing to hold me back. DH will be on his commute back from class by then (although I usually end up waiting to hear him come home before I can fall asleep).

Lunch will probably be a Smart Ones frozen meal and 100-calorie pack of crackers for a snack.

Dinner will be a repeat of last night...I made a yummy dinner...chinese roasted chicken which I baked, stir fried chinese cabbage (although I may use bok choy tonite) and angel hair in herb sauce with shitake mushrooms.

I did have seconds on the pasta though last night. I'll not do that tonite, but go for the veggies or chicken breast instead. That would be healthier.

Have a wonderful day everyone.

Thanks for all the support! I feel a little better about last now that I've had a chance to sleep on it. It was just so important to me to be below 200 before my 40th birthday, that's the bummer for me. My not so darling MIL is going to have a birthday party for me and I know the weight will come up as a topic of conversation since she loves to rub it in that she weighs less than I do.

I'll just have to show her up by losing more for the holidays and after. She always gains at least 10 pounds during the holidays so if I can lose enough to almost weigh the same, it'll shut her up. Some motivator huh?

On the brighter side though, the new scale I bought said the same weight as the doctor's office scale last night and is down a pound this morning. I'll take it. One down 113 more to go.

Cateyes, I guess my motivator was when I could no longer wear the size I had in the closet and had to go out and buy a larger size scrub for work. It ticked me off so much that didn't eat all day long just to get used to feeling hungry for my diet. Right now I just want to be able to wear a size in the teen range instead of 20's. I'm not sure if I can do it by Christmas, but that my new goal. That and I want to be below 200 by summer next year. Hopefully it'll work. Also TGIF has an awesome low carb menu! Whenever we go out for dinner, we go there because there's something for everyone.

Holly, I don't know if this will help at all, but I usually designate one day as cheat day. On that day I can have an extra 300 calories of my choosing. You might want to do it the day after your WI so that you have the rest of the week to burn off the extra 300 calories. I spend at least some of my week trying to figure out just what I want for those extra calories and then enjoy it to no end when it gets here.

Girlie - It sounds like you're right on track. Keep up the great work.

Annie - I'm very glad you're liking your new second job at Kohl's. From what I've been told, it's a nice place to work.

If I missed anyone I'm sorry, but I'm off to study for class and keep up with my little tzar.

Nan

Nan:
I love TGIF!!! Unfortunately, the wrong things for me lol!

Today hasn't been good so far. My feet are KILLING me...is it because I'm so fat that heels kill me? How do women wear heels every day? I almost fell when I was in the mall. Also, I just flug pasta sauce on my shirt from my WW meal. AND I ate three little cookies. A woman brought home made pumpkin raisin cookies and I just couldn't resist. The word pumpkin always gets me. I love pumpkin anything!

But, on the upside, I bought myself a nice matching exercise pants and zip-up sweatshirt. I've always wanted a matching set and this was on sale and nice and warm for the cold early mornings. I've been wearing my two exercise pants that are kinda thin and they are wearing in the crotch/thigh area. I'm proud of myself for getting up in the mornings and this will make me feel hip and put together if you know what I mean. I don't like to go to the gym feeling frumpy with a giant t-shirt on. I bought the bottoms in a smaller size - 14/16. I know they will get looser as time goes by. I the top is an 18/20 and I want to keep it loose for layering t-shirts and stuff. It's an ugly green color but that was what was on sale. I told myself no more clothing unless it's stuff to workout in!

So I will be stylin' tomorrow at the gym. ANYthing to get me to look forward to going.

Girlie - I hear ya on the different sizes between tops and bottoms. I'm the same way and I hate it when my tops show all my fat rolls (way too many of them now ).

I'm happy you were able to find an outfit. It does make a difference when you can look nice and go work out.

Right now I'm on track with only 240 calories for the day thus far. I'm determined to get below 200 before spring! Gotta keep the calories in check to do that.

Hope everyone else is on track and not feeling hungry!

Nan

Hi all,

Hate is such a strong word. And our fat is part of our very bodies, like it or not. I of course would prefer to be thinner, why else am I here losing weight? I hate to sound preachy, but as long as we hate our fat bodies, we potentially sabotage our efforts. Are we more likely to do wholesome things for something we like, or for something we hate?

Here are my reasons for preferring to weigh less:

1. I want to be able to buy clothes off normal racks in regular stores.
2. I have more energy when smaller
3. prevent potential health problems
4. to keep playing tennis for years to come
5. to not feel as if I am on the fringe of society

What about a list of 5 things we like about our bodies? When I first tried to do this exercise some years ago, I could come up with only one thing, good blood chemistry. Sad, but it was a start, now my list is much longer, but it was slow in coming.

And to labchick, I am so very sorry about your scale incident. A similar though far less horrific thing happen to me a year and a half ago. My scale anomoly was only 6 freaking pounds in the wrong direction (do these things ever make mistakes in our favor????), and I know how that negatively affected me. It really threw me for a loop. I was lucky enough to find a very good balance scale at a garage sale and it now gives me great peace to know my weigh-ins are accurate even though higher than I would like. I have killed a scale in past years by jumping up and down on it, shall we say 'harshly,' when it told me the wrong thing. Second degree scalicide. Perhaps you might consider doing away with your old one in a symbolic way that would please you. Got safety glasses and a sledge hammer????

Jan, hw250/sw214/cw206/gw?170,

Jan that's an awesome idea! I do have two pair of safety glasses in the garage and a sledge hammer. My 3 year old loves opportunities to be destructive. WOO HOO!

A poundin' we shall go, A poundin' we shall go, hi ho the derry o, a poundin' we shall go!

Nan

Go for it Nan, but very carefully, esp with a young'un there. But smash the cr@p out of that deceitful messenger of evil.

Jan, experienced scale killer

Muahahahahahahahaha!

OMG, that felt good!

Thanks for the idea Jan! I owe you one!

Nan