Battle: Yep, I've realized that recently, I'm trying to make myself think more positively but it is hard!



I had a great valentine's day. Hubby sent a dozen roses and we went out to eat. The bad thing, I'm up 6 pounds today what??? I picked mostly the best for your things on the menu. Maybe I'm retaining water. Eating out is usually salty.

HeatherDW it is probably water. I wouldn't even worry about it. Stick to being OP today and go forward. I know it is hard to remain positive when life throws us curveballs and things look so rosey for others, but you MUST! Negativity will eat you up inside and you become a self fulfilling prophecy. Don't do that! Life is too short. Remember things are not always as they seem to those on the outside..so be careful of what you wish for as you just might get it and it might not be what you really want!

Debbie You did your best for your son, but he is an adult now and is responsible for his own choices. If he chooses to miss out on a relationship with such a nice person like you, then really...that is his loss. You bring kids into the world, you love them for all of their days, but you can't make them be a part of your life once they are grown and have families of their own. I am not saying that your son is making a wise decision....IMO he is letting his wife bring him down and I feel this contact with you is to distract him from seeing HER as the problem. Don't let her bait you into becoming the person she says you are. Feel better!!

We did have a bit of water in the basement, but I vacuumed it up and lugged out the water...it was almost like exercise I hear we are to have torrential downpours on Monday...oh joy!

I am staying OP and feeling GREAT! Hope you all are too. I must get back to work, but wanted to pop in and say HI!...so HI! Have a good one!

woke up monday with a scratchy throat........came home from work and felt worse.......took my temp it was 103......it stayed there till tuesday morning even with tylenol & motrin........tuesday we had a snowday(Thank Goodness!) I stayed in bed.....dh went to work & came home coughing up a storm.......by that evening he was running a temp Weds another snowday dh & I both stayed in bed till close to noon when we finally went to send a package to our daughter for Valentine's............dh was coughing so severely he said lets go into the hospital(on base) they wisked him right back with his asthma they don't hesitate when he says he is having a hard time catching his breath........I on the other hand sat for over a hour till they called me back. I have the same sypmtoms as he does, he tested positive for the flu & I didn't...........so they let me go with meds .........they admitted him so he has spent the since weds in the hospital lowsy way to spend Valentine's!

My son started running a fever and a slight cough but he seemed ok on thursday & went for the weekend to his brother's apartment (1 hour away) to spend time with his girlfriend at her college.

my youngest left on a three day trip for Wrestling State tournaments....no she isn't a wrestler LOL she manages the team......she is sniffling but no fever..........

So here I sit all alone for two days now! Dh just called he wont be released today and they don't know about tomorrow.........

my oldest daughter is driving in from her college tonight to keep me company & help me clean........I still feel horrible & now ontop of everything my stomach is upset.......

I treated myself last night for Valentines I picked up a chicken wrap at Sonic.......and a small sweetheart's blast.......maybe the ice cream upset my stomach....not sure or it could be the fact that i keep coughing!!

I didn't realize we start the threads over each week now the number makes sense!!! LOL

I weighed in on Monday and lost a total of 10lbs!!! I haven't eaten enough to even count this week! I keep telling myself to eat between naps etc....cuz I am not hungry with all this coughing just thirsty......drinking lots of water & diet tea........as well as Gatorade.....

I will try to post later on to let you all know how we are feeling...

the only good thing was we had two snowdays & a 4 day weekend this week.........so I worked monday & called in for thursday........so only had to take one sick day! hopefully I will feel better by tuesday........the doc told dh his cough may last 6 weeks!!!! I sure hope that's not the case!!!

Debbie: Hang in there.

Carol: to your hubby on the Rock. What an excellent idea!

Rat: I love eeyore but, he isn't that bright. it is better not to listen to him.

HeatherDW: I bet it is just water weight. Keep on movin

Peggy: to the water in your basement. Have a great day!

Well, I'm at work and need to get to work. I got here at 7:30 and the IT guy was here at the same time. He followed me into my office and got to my chair before I did and started messing with my computer and I had to put off my work that I was planning until he got off my computer 40 minutes later. UGH!. So, gotta do some work now. I have Saturday off and training on Sunday and Monday. I weighed and with TOM I am down only 3 but better than none. I will update tracker after posting.

have a super great op, butt moving and water drinking day.

Blessings,
Annie

DMPLS: Feel better soon to you and your family. Congrats on -10 sorry you are sick. Hugs.

Blessings,
Annie

Hi everyone quick hello while I am at lunch.. This week has been lol I am not cut out for 10-11 hour days. Not to mention my children were home 2 days straight due to snow and my son had tummy trouble. Needless to say my eating has been in the toilet to put it politely. All I can think about is making it till 10pm tonite getting off work and sleeping till I cant sleep no more. DH did his best this week bless his heart.. unfortunately most the food he provided was take home. .. I tried to eat small portions and he did try to bring something I could eat... last nite we just made spaghetti and I ate it.. For VDay he gave me a huge dark choccie bar and said take sm nibbles when you need a smile with a red and white stuffied dog how could I resist that?? well I am back to work catch you all later I will weigh Sunday and see how much I have gained.

Tina

OH what a moment I had yesterday....NEED to let it out...

So as some of you might know, I was a contestant on NBC's "The Singing Bee" and my 1st (of 2) episode aired on Decemebr 28. I won $50,000 and was the returning champion for the 2nd show (hasn't aired yet so I can't discuss it). It was a dream come true...being on a game show...doing that well at something I love...and I got a lot of positive feedback from people in my community. I of course HATED every minute of actually watching the show on TV because ALL I saw was my fat and my rolls. I was mortified but people kept assuring me that my outfit looked great and so forth.

So from time to time I check out the Web to see if I can find any new information about the show...and just see in general what people have said about it. So yesterday I found the following post which came after my show aired...so I know that the comment was about me:

"I hope that the woman who won can now find some better-fitting clothes. I think she was wearing curtains as a blouse."

Now I held that one in all day....did not tell a soul..not even DH because I did not want to be ina bad mood and get upset on Valentine's Day when he was trying so hard to be sweet and loving. I'm still unsur what to make of the comment. I'll admit that I was not wearing the right pants....I can't stop wearing capris even though I know that they make short chubby girls look shorter and more chubby and my top was not that big on me...it actually was a button front blouse that was slightly fited and flared...and I never wear button-front because I am always scared that the buttons will gape. HECK...the casting coordinator PICKED the top for me and made someone else change so he wouldn't be wearing blue as well.

WHY DO I CARE WHAT THIS ANONYMOUS PERSON SAID ABOUT ME??? OK I know I was seen on national TV and I know that I'm not the most svelte thing on the block...but who dohis words bug me this much? I am happy that I am now grounded enough in my new eating habits that bingeing didn't even register..it was more of a general paranoia about what he actually meant.

ARGH.

Debbie: I am so sorry that you hav to not only go through this pain once...but twice. DH's family adopted a 2nd son from foster care many many moons ago when they were both young. By 16 he was out of the house and by 17 he had severed ties with them. He has been back in and out of their lives indirectly through his daughter and from reports they have gotten. Recently, he was "found" online and all I could see in their faces was anger and hurt...for themselves and for his daughter (their granddaughter).

I have also watched my own family suffer from a distance over my brother...who is now 32 and suffers from bipolar disorder. My parents (dad and stepmom) have a restraining order against him barring him from contacting them directly or through a 3rd party or from coming near them. He will violate the order repeatedly and leave them the most desperately awful and scathing voice mails...and them tell my mother that life is swell and everything is great. He recently moved back to the city where my parents live and I know they are scared...more so that he will do something to himself than he will come see them...but he has been calling thir friends and associates and crying out for help in so many scary ways...but the help he wants is money...nothing therapeutic.

People too often completely realize and do not care about how the recipient of the message will feel...all they know is that they said their piece and that's enough for them. I hope you are able to find the strength and comfort that you need and deserve to get you through this...and know that you truly do deserve MUCH love.

Happy Windy Friday from LA!!!

Debbie-I don’t know what to say. I know there is nothing I can say that will make you feel better or make the hurt go away. Just know that I am thinking about you.

Carol-Usually I get 90 minutes in the pool. I get 30 minutes of warming up before class, and then the class lasts 60. I used to get 60 minutes of shallow water followed by 60 minutes of deep water in Florida, but they aren’t scheduled that way here. I have already been segregated. I don’t mess around in the water. When I go, I go all out for as long as I can. In Florida, the instructor was in the water with us, and they made me go to the other side of the pool because I was going faster than she was, and the little old ladies said I was messing up their timing. Here the instructor is outside the water, so I can be in the back so I don’t mess anyone up, but I have developed a dead zone around me. No one wants to be near me because I go so hard that I make quite a bit of water disturbance. I have to have fruit in my gym bag to have right after class or I can’t even walk to the bus stop. That’s after having almost 700 calories for breakfast right before I go. Normally, I have half that much. The water is 30 times more resistant than the air, so that is why working out in it is so much more draining, but only 1/10 your body weight on your joints. Perfect for old gimpy ladies like me.

DMPLS-Sonic. I miss Sonic. I also miss Brahms. I guess it is just as well that I’m maroon north of the border away from chicken fried steak sandwiches and onion rings the size of my head. There are lots of A&W’s though. More of those than even McDonald’s.

Julee-You are brave to be on national TV. I don’t think I could ever do it.

The dinner last night was very nice. It was Lebanese, and I actually like that better than Greek, and I love Greek. I grew up around a big group of refugees from Lebanon, and have always loved their uniqueness. Last night might have been the best baba ganoush that I have ever had. We got lots of small bites of all kinds of salads and appetizers. It was actually toned down a bit, I think because Canadians are used to a British style of cooking, and you add spice, and they got nuts either loving it or hating it. The prawns and lamb were actually kind of bland, and that shouldn’t have been. We won one of the door prizes, a spa day, and a silver bracelet. I will probably give the spa thing to the ladies group at church to raffle. I’ve had too many injuries to have a massage by anyone but an MD practically. They might hurt me. I’m not really a bracelet person, but it would be a nice present to save for a friend’s birthday. I sat next to an architect and a bank president. At $150/plate I guess I wasn’t going to be sitting next to a teacher or fireman. I’m pretty sure we were the only ones who came on the bus. I think it was just nice to be able to say we had somewhere to go for Valentine’s. That’s something very new to me.

Dmpls - love the new avatar.

Hi everyone,
I'm still sick, but I'm fighting this illness with everything I've got.

Here's a funny that cheered me up: I received a call from a potential client who called himself doctor, and mentioned having an unexpectedly heavy patient load today. I replied that the flu was going around like wildfire, so I can understand why he was unusually busy.

It turns out he is a psychologist. hehehe

This morning I was back down to my ticker weight. Who knows, maybe some day it will go below that impossibly old number. When I am out of the 260s, I am going to shout with glee.

DMPLS: Congrats on the 10 lbs. Why didn't my appetite disappear like yours did? Oh well!

Catherine: It's exciting to win prizes, even if they're not useable..at least for me! I remember being over the moon when I won a silver-plated corkscrew. I guess it doesn't take much to entertain me. hehe

Realist: Good to see you. Come by more often!

Battle-It was nice to win something, but I was sure hoping for the $600 bottle of wine. That could have gone on eBay or something.

Hi
I'm doing fine now. It was just sad to get that in an email and from his wife, not my son. I think so many of you are right. I think she is trying to be the hero to bring the family back together so she can be praised once again. I also had an awakening last night to why I think I'm fat, which I will put in a whole new thread when I feel I can write about it.

I want to thank you all so much for the hugs, the words of wisdom, and the similar stories that you or your families have gone thru. I feel as if you ladies are my sisters, I never had one growing up, just a brother and we aren't even that close. So thank you for being there for me. backatcha all!!!

Now for some good news. Last week at my WI, I was up to 305 again. I didn't change my ticker though to reflect that. I'm happy to say, I'm down to 293 now!!! I can't believe it was just falling off, (I wish the flabby skin would of fallen off too). Now a little crappy news, TOM is here again. UGH!! I think it's totally confused. If it doesn't get straightened out here pretty soon, I'm going to have to go to the doc. I don't know if it's part of menopause or what.

Carol, the rock, that is so romantic!!! How sweet. Ed is totally awesome!

Ratkity, thank you for the warm blankie, there's nothing better! I'm so glad to hear that you are outta your funk. Most of the time you are so "UP" that I was surprised that you had episodes of depression. Pull eeyore's ears down and tie them around his mouth so he can't talk anymore!! We love ya!!!

Peggy, thank goodness there was only a little water!! You better go and put a huge umbrella over the house to keep the oncoming downpours away!! Just stay warm and dry.

DMPLS, o my goodness!!! You guys better take care of yourselves. I sure hope you're feeling better and hubby gets home soon. It's so hard to have someone in the hospital when you're not feeling well yourself. You probably feel like crawlin' in the bed with him!! At least your daughter is there to stay with you. Great news on the 10lbs gone, but don't be too upset if a little creeps back when you're well. I'm hoping it won't but everytime I've been sick, that's what happens.

Annie, I woulda kicked his fanny offa the computer!!! Just kiddin'. YAY on the 3 lb loss. That's wonderful. You'll be down to that
270 mini goal in no time.

Julee, whoever wrote that about you, if it was you, has no life and has to go and tear others down to make themself feel better.
I hope you don't really take to heart what an idiot like that would say. It' s not worth it. They don't know you, don't know about you, so they had no right. Some people just don't think how it will affect others.
I just noticed that you live in Northridge. I used to work at Litton, small world.

Catherine, sounds like the dinner was really nice and yummy. You are such a sweetheart to give the spa day for a raffle.

Well gotta run. Waiting for the vet to call back about Daisy's pills.
ta ta for now
Debbie

hi everyone
Happy Friday! wow....Valentine's night was amaaaaaaaazing. I am very blessed. The Irish Stew was so tasty! Nigel loved his wine. I set the table on the back deck and we dined outside...with candles and the table looked so elegant. Nigel came in bearing gifts and flowers. I do love flowers. I used to think why buy cut flowers they just die...but I have to say a few dozen roses sure look lovely in a vase...with all the greenery and baby's breath. I wasn't expecting the huge red bag of gifts! The warmth from the fire sure put a glow about the room and the reflecting firelight was nice dancing with the moonbeams that came in from the upstairs window. After we had dinner and sipped some wine for a bit and talked about life...we came in and roasted marshmallows....those strawberry marshmallows were yummmmmy. Nigel loved the cheesecake and the red velvet cake...and I was surprised that I couldn't even eat them both. I didn't feel guilty....partaking...as I had already resolved to give the day to love and freedom of counting the days calories...only, they didn't have the appeal that sweets have had in the past. I enjoyed a few bites of each and that was enough to satisfy me. We danced a bit by the fire...to some music I bought...romantic classical...and then opened our gifts. I loved my card…it had a tiny key…the key to his heart! He bought me a lovely pearl necklace and come matching earrings, a gorgeous basket of bubble bath items from Bath and Body…Sweet Pea…scent…(he calls me sweetpea) and a small box of Godiva chocolates! YUMMM. I had said to him last week, love, if you decide to buy me candy please only get a small box haha. He also bought me a new camera flip phone OMG…in red! I love it! He loved his 2002 bottle of Chianti and his clothes. But he especially loved the Love Stencil Kit! OMG….it was this little kit that had a think brush like a pastry brush…that you dip into this little container of chocolate…and then paint this edible chocolate paint onto your body…the 2 stencils were cute…one said KISS ME HERE…and the other one said LOVE and had some heart cutouts. WOW….did we have fun with that! <blush> All in all I didn’t really go over my daily intake too bad, even counting the roasted marshmallows! Besides…maybe I burned off those extra calories “painting.” LOL <wink wink>
I hope that everyone had an awesome Valentines day. Thanks for being my friends…
Peace and happiness to you all
And rainbowsmiles and blessings!
Rainbowsmiles

Hi Peeps - how was Friday? Today I read on one of the threads about alcohol - even when included in daily calories - and inhibiting weight loss. The last 3 weeks have been pretty social around here - with a few glasses of wine or cocktails. Even though I counted the calories it may have an impact on how my body processes the alcohol/sugar. DUH - I can't believe I forgot. So for the next few weeks no alcohol for me - I'm so excited about something so easy I may have missed. Right in front of my face in black and white in my food journal.

Battle - feel better soon!

Debbie - hugs to you my friend.

Catherine - how kind of you to donate the day at the spa. And to remember a friend with the bracelet. You're one in a million. Glad you had a good time.

Susan - sounds like last night was fun. Glad you enjoyed it - you put your heart into it - so nice to see.

Heather dw - sounds like you also had a wonderful time. What color are your roses? How sweet hubby was to spoil you.

Hugs to you all - gotta run,
Carol

Carol- yes I thought about that thin/fat lady avatar and said heck Im ME fat now & maybe when Im thin I will change it! LOL Its a pick of me & my puppy Zito(short for Ozito-spanish for little bear-I know I didn't spell it correctly but I liked the spelling) Dh got him for me for my 40th birthday........he jokes that if he would of known a toy poodle could make me cry more than a diamond ring he would of bought me a poodle long ago LOL I bawled like a baby! I grew up with toy poodles when I was young and have always wanted one........he drove 3hours there & then back to get it from the breeder! He is a sweetie!

Battle- Usually my appetite is always going LOL so yes it was unusual for me as well......I finally felt like eating today and ate very well to my surprise!

Debbie- yes I will be greatful when dd gets her she is on the road now and then we will drive up and see her dad for a few mins tonight......then I'm gonna have her help me clean this house!!! the 10lbs was prior to me being sick & while I've been sick I've lost another 3lbs I hope I can keep that off for the rest of this week.......(I jumped on the scale today to see)........we'll see on Monday

Rainbow- you are always a joy to read your comments!! reading about your Valentine's night makes me jealous! Ours is put on hold since Dh went into the hospital *sniff sniff* Dh kept asking me if I wanted to know what he was going to do.......I said OHHHH noooo way mister you still aren't out of the woods!! we can wait for another day!! hehehe

Update on me & Dh's illnesses
I'm feeling better today! I actually ate food today!! I woke up with an upset stomach so ate some applesauce for breakfast. then had a beautiful juicy pear! (Dh's work dropped off a fruit basket for us! YUMMY) I had yougurt and a protein bar (Luna) that was yummy & now I know what I will replace a snickers bar with!!!! YIPPIEE when I need that chocolate treat!!! ate a banana on the way to the hospital and then ate dinner with dh (he had his hospital food yummm LOL) I got a fantastic Chef's salad with chicken & light Italian dressing with wheat thins & an apple. When I got home I ate another luna bar and drank LOTS of water!

Dh will be there till tomorrow hopefully! However we learned more than we wanted to with this doctor visit.....they diagnosed him with type 2 diabetes!!!!! His sugar is around 240 right now.......the doctor said it is mostly from the meds he is on and the IV.........that after he is off Prednisone he shouldn't have to take insulin, but he will have to take pills and monitor his sugar....we had been thinking something was wrong prior to us deciding to loose weight together.......but dh hates going to the doctor unless apsolutely necessary......so we have one more thing to deal with him and his health......I've been reading up on meal planning for a diabetic and such.....hopefully we can manage it with his diet since we changing the way we eat!!!



GRRRRRRRR! does anyone else have an issue with taking a long time to type out a response & then when you hit post it says you are logged out??? this happens to me so often I've learned to copy my post before clicking post so I have my words!!!!