I think a binge is where you aren't controlled. Its more about your emotions and accomodating them as opposed to accomodating your health. Its a mental shift. I had a big binge issue. I would call myself in recovery of binging right now. Part of it was changing jobs. 8 hour shifts are infinitely better than 12s and a healthier work environment. The other part....I dont have words other than paying attention to myself. As moms, spouses, and all the other roles we have we focus on all those relationships but never our relationship with ourselves.

3/1: 194*
3/2: 193.6
3/3: 192.8
3/4: 191.2! I may hit 180s next week!
3/5: 192.4. Potluck at work last night..i did better than usual, but..there were doritos ...my arch nemesis.*
3/6: 191.6
3/7: 190.6
3/8: 189.8

It was certainly a major victory, over both old habits and appetite. I don't blame you for still being hungry. Although tapas is a great way to try different things, it would no doubt leave me wanting more after it was over. There's something about sitting down and eating one solid meal until I'm satisfied...

Thank you for sharing your definitions. I wonder what kind of things would give you the same result, without the after-effects you're trying to avoid? Obviously there's a payoff - lots of good taste, and, if you're like me, happiness in that - but we don't want what goes along with it e. g., calories, guilt. Just thinking out loud. We all wonder, here at 3fc, the same thing, I guess. There's no doubt more than one answer, and different things for different people.

Maybe one reason to ask these questions is that when this type of thing happens to me, it all seems to "subconscious," or whatever. If we enter into the process, and examine it and where it comes from, or at least attempt to investigate, I think that can have a positive effect.

Glad you're in a better place now. Sounds like you've done a lot of work to get there! And we do need to take care of ourselves. It's like when we fly on a plane - they tell you to grab the oxygen mask for yourself, because you won't be able to continue if you can't breath!

Congrats on the continuing loss!

back to the weekday grind

3/4: 135
3/5: 135 <- back on moderate/low carb diet
3/6: 134.25
3/7: 134
3/8: 134.25 <- I should maybe watch my salt intake a bit more lol
3/9: 133.75

Up to 158 this morning, but I think it was the burger that I had last night. Even without the bun on it, it felt very heavy in my stomach.

Officially, I entered Phase 2 of SB today and ate a proper portion of my whole wheat carbonara pasta with zucchini mixed in for lunch. I'm probably going to have carrots and hummus for a snack later.

3/1: 133.4
3/2: 134
3/3: 132.4
3/4: 131.4
3/5: 131.4
3/6: 131
3/7: 131
3/8: 131.8 well that's a bummer
3/9: 132.2 not enjoying this trend


Nickilaughs, you are so right that bingeing is a state of mind.

Crunchymama, beef always bumps me up on the scale the next day.

3/1/15 - 149.8
3/2/15 - 149.2
3/3/15 - 149.2
3/4/15 - 149.4
3/5/15 - 149.4
5/6/15 - 147.4
5/7/15 - 149.2
5/8/15 - xxx.x
5/9/15 - xxx.x

Ugggghhh - terrible weekend! An attack of the out of control emotions.... Need to be accountable, though. Next time, I will write before I stuff my face... Draw a line and move on.

Weight: Official last Feb weigh-in: Friday, 2/27/15 - 111.4

3/01/15 - 117; 3/02 - 116.6; 3/03 - 114.3

3/4 - 113.6; 3/5 - 112.6

Official Weigh Day - Friday, March 6: 110.8

3/8 - 118.1 (over a pound above last Sunday's post Up Days weight); 3/9 - 115.9; 3/10 - 114.8 (half a pound above last Tuesday's weight).

3/1: 133.4
3/2: 134
3/3: 132.4
3/4: 131.4
3/5: 131.4
3/6: 131
3/7: 131
3/8: 131.8 well that's a bummer
3/9: 132.2 not enjoying this trend
3/10: 132

I really need to start counting calories again but I just. can't. make. myself.

3/4: 135
3/5: 135 <- back on moderate/low carb diet
3/6: 134.25
3/7: 134
3/8: 134.25 <- I should maybe watch my salt intake a bit more lol
3/9: 133.75
3/10: 133.5
3/11: 133.5

3/1/15 - 149.8
3/2/15 - 149.2
3/3/15 - 149.2
3/4/15 - 149.4
3/5/15 - 149.4
5/6/15 - 147.4
5/7/15 - 149.2
5/8/15 - xxx.x
5/9/15 - xxx.x
5/10/15 - xxx.x
5/11/15 - 149.2

3/10: 158.5 (we had steak for dinner the night before)
3/11: 157

I've been working better carbs and sugars back into my diet. I did really well on Monday when I had one slice of artisan garlic bread. Bread is a weakness for me. I'll go back again and again for bread and before I realize, I've had about 5 or 6 pieces.

I love my avatar too, Hunger. It's my sister and I about the time I lost weight the first time. She's a fashion major and had taken me out to find some new wardrobe pieces; not to buy, just to prove that I fit in a different size!

It's good motivation

That's so sweet! And you both look great.

I made some muy low-carb bread yesterday. It was a lovely color, and held together and cut very well. But to me it smelled...weird. But hubby, who watches his carbs like a hawk because of the sugar, thought it was..."hearty...good," lol. Seven carbs per slice. I'll keep trying different recipes, I guess.

An alert Feather was wondering how I gain so much weight so quickly, and then lose it in a week. I appreciate the question, and here was my answer:


I can frickin' EAT! I am a very big eater, and that's why I have to have such a strict diet plan. I eat a large amount of high-fat, high-protein foods on my two up days. The up days are usually back-to-back, on the weekend.

So it's not in a day [that I gain the eight pounds]. I'm going to try and remember what I ate this last two up days. There was a huge bowl (three servings) of oatmeal with walnuts, frozen cherries and half and half, and heavy cream, a giant steak (I actually figured out the calories: 629!), Bare Naked cereal with half and half, frozen raspberries and cream, apple slices with peanut butter, three egg omelet with a massive amount of cheese, a 6" Subway tuna sub with double tuna and mayo, with a side of limon potato chips, six chocolate chip cookies for breakfast Saturday, with heavy cream on the side, a can of corn with butter on it, Ben and Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream...you get the idea. And I've probably left some things out!

Jeepers, I'm even shocking myself! But this is how I used to eat daily. I like feeling full, but I can't do it every day any longer. I now, even though I'm getting all the medically-recommended calories for the week, am hungry most of the time. But I make up for it on the weekend!

So maybe I gain four pounds in a day, then eight over the two up days. I won't be posting much in the next week, but maybe I can weigh myself after that first up day and see what the damage is, at some point.

As far as losing it, you can tell from my records that it is lost at about a rate of a pound a day. But that is food/water, not fat. I don't lose more than a half a pound a week, usually. And I lose it by only eating 600 very healthy calories a day until that half pound is gone. That's 600 calories Sunday, 600 calories Monday, 600 calories Tuesday, etc., until I hit the half-pound loss, which seems to be happening on Friday these days. It used to happen on Wednesday or Thursday - a couple of times, it happened on Tuesday! Those days, sadly, seem to be gone. And it also is taking more and more exercise to reach that goal. AND a total fast day (except for one cup of coffee)!

I'm glad you asked, at any rate, and feel free to ask any type of diet question. My approach is my own, and I don't suggest it for anyone else. But it's the only one that ever worked - in a long-run type of way - for me.

Weight: Official last Feb weigh-in: Friday, 2/27/15 - 111.4

3/01/15 - 117; 3/02 - 116.6; 3/03 - 114.3

3/4 - 113.6; 3/5 - 112.6

Official Weigh Day - Friday, March 6: 110.8

3/8 - 118.1 (over a pound above last Sunday's post Up Days weight); 3/9 - 115.9; 3/10 - 114.8 (half a pound above last Tuesday's weight). 3/11 - 113 (point six pounds down from the same time last week); 3/12 - 112.6 (same as same time last week).

So...today I'm at the same point I was this time last week, when I should be one-half pound lower. Which means it's going to be even more difficult to get to goal - 110.5 - by tomorrow. Emergency measures are needed - again! Fasting today, with one cup of coffee, AND - bringing in the big guns - doing a Richard Simmons video today!

I am bound and determined to lose this measly half pound a week.