First name: Kris
Geographical location: North Texas
Age: 49
Marital Status: married
Children/Ages: 2 sons, ages 21 & 18
Occupation: Office mgr for a contracting co.
Pets: 3 dogs; labradoodle named Finley (he's really only mine), german shepherd named Bonnie, silver labrador named Bandit, and 1 spoiled rotten cat named Mouse.
Hobbies/Interests: My pets, reading, gambling, fishing, traveling (when I can)
Height: 5'8
Eye/Hair Color: green/blonde
Starting Date of Weightloss Journey:
TBD depending on when I order my food
Starting Weight: 286
Present Weight: 286
Goal Weight: 175 (should be around 150, but just getting under 200 would thrill me)
Biggest hurdle to overcome in weightloss: This is a tough one because I have used so many excuses in the past, but honestly this time...its my husband. Back in 2013-2014 I lost 80 lbs and felt fantastic. I loved how I felt mostly and all the good reports from my dr, and yes, I loved being able to shop in the "normal" sizes instead of plus and seeing a thinner me, but that was just icing. Then one night at a party, I saw my husband flirting with a very overweight woman who happened to be my sis-in-law (married to my brother) and it hurt so much I almost didn't recover and we almost broke up. He told me he was sorry, of course, and it didn't cross a line that was the end, but it was close. After a while he told me that he didn't find me as attractive since I had lost all the weight. He said he thought I had changed so much, inside and out. I was crushed. I know I should be grateful that he finds me attractive at my heaviest (husband is 6'2 and weighs less than 220), but no matter what I weigh, I'm still me. It has played a terrible mind game on me, or I have let it play a terrible mind game. I may be using it as an excuse....I honestly don't know. But I have gained back almost all the weight.....I'm 15 lbs away from being at my biggest and I hate myself for it. But I tell myself if I lose again he won't want me. So I've decided to get healthy for ME, for my sons and for my future. If my husband wants to be a part of it or not will be up to him. I can't make him want me or be attracted to me. It's crazy though. So there it is!
Following any specific plan: I used Medifast the first time and I've decided to go back on that plan. I put
TBD on my start date because I don't know when my food will arrive. I'm thinking July 8 will probably be the date.
What is different this time in your weight loss efforts than in the past: Different because I really want to do this to prove to myself that it's important for me and my family that I'm HEALTHY. Not just thin, not just wearing "normal" size clothes, but because it's the smart thing to do for our future. I hope GOD blesses me with many, many healthy years and that I'm never a burden on my children. Oh and I need to have surgery on my foot that will have me totally off of it for a few weeks and it would be so much easier to handle if I were smaller.
Anything else you would like to share with us: I am grateful to be here and I hope to hear from anyone willing to reach out. The support means so much to me. I've had a long talk with my sons and asked them to please try to support me the best they can and they are excited for my journey. I don't have a lot of other people to share with.