KnK, how did you do yesterday?

I'm typing from my kindlefire so forgive mistakes please

my sore throat def. morped into a cold grrrr.

Gotta get ready for work. HELLO to all

Hey, kewl!

Hey Vermont and everyone else!

I am feeling better the last few days. First, I talked to my therapist, and we did an exercise in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, which will hopefully help me change the way I think and also help me with some of the anxiety I have. I also talked to one of my peers at work, and he was telling me that my boss and a few of my coworkers love me to death. He says that they love my attitude and the fact that I'm not afraid to try new projects, so I hope they keep that in mind

Right now, I'm not on any "official" medication, but I started taking St John's Wort on my own about six months ago. It helped level out my moods a bit, but I still have "depressive episodes". I don't want to take medication because I am terrified of the side effects. If I gain weight because of anti depressant medication, it's going to make me even more depressed.

I think some of my depression is also weather based. I know that sounds silly, but the sun and warm weather definitely does something for my mood. The last two days, it's been in the 70s with a lot of sunshine, which really seems to help me not feel so "blah". Anyone else feel this way?

grneyedmustang, I think VermontMom would definitely agree with you about nice weather. I on the other hand, prefer the coziness of dreary weather strangely enough. I can never rise up to meet to the pressures of a nice sunny day. By the way I used to take St Johns Wort and actually had really good success with it as long as I remembered to take it 3x per day as it directed. I actually felt really happy on it instead of just 'not miserable' as I feel on medication.

Today was ok but TOM's here so I spent half of the day in the bathroom getting rid of some of the water I'm retaining. I just hope tonight won't be the same. My DF went to store today and bought me some tampons. That is a good man.

hopeforme - your DF def. gets the Guy of the Month Award for that

GEM (is that okay abbrev?) that is NOT silly at all!! (weather mood) Here in New England, especially in the state I'm in, ESPECIALLY in the county I am in, (one of the cloudiest places in the U.S.!!) that is a huge issue for me. I've had to buy one of those Happy Lights to help. I think that having a sunroof for my vehicle is not overkill either! I try to stand near windows at work when I can..I consciously try to not wear sunglasses in the car unless I have to...anything to get more sunlight in this brain!

Oh and I love to hear that your boss and co-workers love you to death!!

Where did everybody go?

I wish I had something interesting to write but I just don't. The days just seem to be running together.

DF took our dog to the vet today. She has been keeping her right eye closed a lot and it's a little red. They think her eye may be too dry (I thought it was the opposite) so we have to give her drops twice a day and take her back on Friday. They didn't find any scratches or anything so that is good. They think the drops will stimulate her eye ducts. How weird?

I'm debating starting Weight Watchers again. I know I would be so happy if I just did it. One of my friends just started again and wants me to join. I've done it several times and lost before. My hesitation is that I'm not sure my mind is set to make it work. I don't want to waste any money on anything that I'm not totally committed to. Also part of me thinks, why not just count calories for FREE? I'm not sure yet. I'm just weighing the pros and cons right now.

How is everyone else doing?

Yes, where is everyone! Hi and good morning! Nothing much going on here. Just taking it day by day. I will say I haven't had a "depressive episode" in about a week, and I'm enjoying it.

Vermont, GEM is fine.

Hope4me, I am like you - I thought about joining weight watchers, but I didn't want to spend the money (cheapskate!) - so I started calorie counting (I use Sparkpeople to count my calories) with a focus on a South Beach way of eating. It's working so far, I'm down 4 - 5 pounds from the end of January. Really hoping to be out of the 240's by mid march!

I am here too!! hope, I am hoping that your doggie will be okay and that the eye drops do the trick. What kind of dog is she? (sorry if I know but forgot) I don't know what to say about WW ...never done it so I don't have an opinion to offer..I can understand not wanting to spend the $ if you already do have the knowledge to count calories on your own..but maybe committing to the $ and the meetings would force your mind 'into it'? No pressure from me though, sister..I know what it's like to just not care enough to do anything. I want you out of that no-care place, hope!

Hey GEM I am soooo glad that you haven't had a depressive episode in a while!! do you also get worse in winter? and congrats on being down pounds since the end of January!

I'll do a dance too because I've been going down. It's totally the South Beach-y way of eating. I still WANT things but I'm able to resist. Hope I can keep it up indefinitely

Well I did my outside errands all this morning so I can hunker down for the next snowstorm Guess I'll spend my day off tomorrow shoveling. Old Man Winter really yanked our chain, lulling us into a sense of 'spring is near'. hah!

Sorry Peeps!!!! (Whoosh!!! The sound of me blowing in here quickly because I have to leave to do errands in a few minutes!!! Eek!!)

I have been sooooo busy!!! I was behind on my homework for my Abnormal Psychology class because they didn't mail my book in time so I did 3 weeks of work in one!! Not too shabby, huh? Since then, between Body Pump classes, yoga, regular gym, errands, appts, and everything else I have just been slammed!! We are also facing a lot of life changes that I don't really want to get into right now...we have a big turning point in a week or so then we will be able to do some major planning.

Weight...sigh...nada...down...up...down...up...no real progress...muscles...yes...stamina...yes...hair not falling out by the handfuls..YES!!! Woo hoo! But I am working on releasing my attachment to the outcome and focusing on the path instead...eating to fuel my body...exercising to get stronger and not worrying so much about the scale.

Oh...and I read the Hunger Games trilogy...devoured it more like it...the last book scarred me a little bit and I had to recover from a slight depressive mood after it was over...I don't recommend it if you are sensitive... The author is brilliant but the last book didn't live up to her skill.

Luckily I had Kundalini yoga to give me back my clarity and energy and bounce! :-) Yeah...still flying a little bit from this morning!

I am glad to see you lovely newbies!!! Holly! Hope! Mustang! Leenie! Mom (I hope you are lurking!!!) Everyone! I hope you are all safe and happy and please everyone send some energy and positivity to those poor people affected by the tornadoes!!!

Gotta run!!! Love ya!!!

~Raven~