Wow everyone,
I've been gone so long and so have many of you. I hope that it is nice sunny weather that has you all out and about!
I wanted to mention a few people specifically but I am thinking of you all.
Peggy!!!! I am so upset about your husband's stupidity of not seeing what a lovely, wonderful, beautiful and amazing woman he has right there. I want to kick his ***. Okay. Just had to say that. I am a Christian as you know but I get a bit p'd off at times and this just floored me reading this today. I am so, so sorry hon. I know that lots of people's relationships really struggle after someone has a big weight loss. Strangely it is usually the spouse who didn't lose the weight that has the weirdness. They often times just can't handle the new improved you and that you now possibly have more of a voice etc. I love you and hope and pray that you are able to be strong and know that if there is anything I can do for you I would do it in a heartbeat. You are so amazing and wonderful and please don't forget that!
Lovely: Thanks for the thoughts. I did pulminary testing and found that I don't have asthma so that is a good thing. It may be allergies from the smoke or something like that. I don't know.
Lostbutstilltrying: I have to tell you that your jealousy is very normal. I had to confess to my weight loss support group in April that I was jealous about all of them being able to exercise so freely and do races and stuff and I really want to participate but I am not allowed to medically. I was getting angry and really prayed about it and thought it through and realized. It is a normal feeling to be jealous. I believe (little Annieism here) Envy is a sin because when we are envious we are jealous PLUS we don't want the other people to have their successes. So jealous is normal. If it turns to envy try to work on it. I'm sure you don't wish anyone on here that is close to 300 pounds to not get there you just want it to be you too! Hugs sweetie.
Carol: I think of Catherine often and hope that she is enjoying her life and writing and probably almost finished with school by now
Sharon: Best of wishes to you. Your weight loss journey and how you get there is your business and no one elses! When I made the decision for me to have RNY. It wasn't a cheating easy way out. I had to be on a liquid high protein low carb diet from April 16th 2007 until after my surgery on August 29th 2007. I had to get my weight down by at least 80 pounds to be safe enough to have the surgery. It was life or death for me and it has been a life saver for me literally. You go girl and do the very best you can with your choice. Hugs.
Debbie: So sorry about your hernia. I hope that you are not in pain and that you are able to lose enough weight before December's surgery that you feel comfortable with it. Hugs.
Nancy: Woot Woot on -2!!! Sorry you have been feeling blue. I know that was closer to the beginning of June I think so hopefully you are feeling better now. Hugs.
Rat: Hi glamping girl! Glad to see you.
Everyone else that I didn't mention by name please don't be offended. Just know I'm keeping you in my heart and prayers.
As for me. I have to see my primary care doc tomorrow or Tuesday whenever they can fit me in. I have been having some other issues. Shaking, feeling like I am going to pass out then I eat something like cottage cheese and I'm all better. She is thinking hypoglycemia (sp) I had some severe chest pains around my birthday like horrid and no nitro was helping. It felt like when I had tested positive for a blood clot. I just kept pumping in as much Tylenol as I could stand and stayed as still as I could and after a couple of hours It went away and.... I can breath fine now. I don't know what the deal was but I didn't want to go to the hospital again. I know now that I should have gone (Dr. reamed me out) because if it was another blood clot they would have been able to give me those shots in my tummy again (ouchie) but I am just so sick and tired of going to the hospital so I thought I would "cowboy up" and be tough. I think that is one of the reasons that my primary wants to see me tomorrow or Tuesday. She is going to take a Diamond somthing or other test to check for blood clots along with other things. Oy Vay. lol.
A wonderful thing hapened last Thursday though. I got to swim for the first time in months! I was so happy to be in the water again. I swam for an hour with the kickboard and without and then did about an hour of water walking in the "lazy river". It was bliss for this water bug. lol.
I hope you are all having a wonderful day. It is Iron man here in Coeur d' Alene so I am hanging close to home. It is really hard to travel around town with so many bikes and runners. I would love to go see the swimmers but they started at 6 a.m. so that is over and done. The race is on until midnight tonight then the ones who qualified head to Hawaii for the final Ironman race.
Woke up this am. having to take some nitro and with blood pressure high (for me) so I am just kicking back today. I got to sit in the sunshine for a while which was so nice because it has been so cloudy and rainy here forever it seems.
Blessings all,
Annie