Hiya Peeps!

Just a quickie flyby:

Charley just came out of surgery with flying colors. The tumors looked icky and they are being sent out for biopsy. Poor pus puppy! He's only 7 yrs old now.

Annie - omg! Great news about the water!

Flyby hugs to all,
Ratkity

Rat - I keep meaning to post a pic of my tortie! She could be twins with yours! I found her on the street last winter, she kept following me home. Montreal winters are COLD for small kitties!

neon - Glad you found a doctor to help you through it. It does help, doesn't it? You must be looking forward to finishing teachers' college! Are you planning on getting a job in Ottawa?

gran e - welcome! I can relate to the granny panties. Does anyone else get annoyed by the "thong maxi pad". Like, WTF??? Grr... skinny people and their thongs. /end rant. Good luck! You should just follow your 7 year old around for awhile -- kids burn sooo much energy!

Sharon - I am on Zoloft. I was on Effexor/Risperdal/Wellbutrin for a long time, but I got a new psychiatrist and a new diagnosis (OCD, panic) about 2 yrs ago, and they switched my meds. I've been given seroquel which I don't usually take, but I have been taking it the past few days and I do have to admit that I have been feeling better. I've been wondering about sleep apnea too. It's not normal to be THIS tired.

basket - Yesterday therapy was better. She said I'm not overwhelming or too crazy, which is good I guess. Heh. She did say some things that bothered me though -- like, things such as "did you feel this _____?" that just seemed completely inaccurate and for some reason really bothered me. Mayve it's best to bring it up next week.

annie - I didn't know you had agoraphobia too. It's hard. *hugs* Thank God for the Internet! And swimming is great! I find it's the only type of exercise that I actually consider fun or stress relieving.

Rat - Hugs to poor Charley.


I had a pretty good weekend. I made myself be fairly active, although I am disappointed that I didn't sleep well Saturday night and I missed church on sunday. I did however get MOST of my apartment clean!!! And managed to refurb a cool table/stand thing I found by the side of the road - it's black and pink now! Therapy yest, which was hard and I left feeling incredibly confused. She was saying the "depressed" part of me doesn't seem any more real than the phony/cheery part of me I put on normally. Which just really really confused me. Because I thought I WAS being honest and the depressed, fearful, self-hating part of me WAS the real me. I don't know now... just confused. AND she said some stuff like "did you feel angry at her? How dare she leave me?" which made me think that she thinks I'm a selfish ungrateful *******, when I think that I am far from that. I don't think many good things about myself, and I guess it's important to me that people know that I am kind and considerate. IDK. I might write this down so that I remember it to bring up next week. This is why I have avoided therapy for 4+ yrs. Poo.

I have a midterm on Thursday for a class I have only been to once. Yes, I am an idiot.

Does anyone have any suggestions for energizing foods?

Love to eeryone

Good Morning all,

I spent the whole day yesterday in bed with the flu...darn flu. Feeling better today like 100%! I have a cardiologist appt. this morning and I am honestly dreading it a bit. I have gained so much weight since I had my heart attack last year and I know that is probably the worst thing I could have done for myself. Oh well, bite the bullet and get it over with. I started off on Friday at 262 and this morning I am at 256 so at least I am doing better. I am finally watching what goes into my mouth. A big motivator was moving all of the clothes out of our walk in closet when we had our new carpet put in last week. I was seeing all of the darling clothes that I can't wear anymore and i am determined to change that out of necessity. We can't afford to buy more clothes so I need to get back into the size 14 things that are in my closet! When I weighed in the 220's I could wear the size 14s so that is good that I at least know where I need to head towards. For now, I am wearing sweat pants and tee shirts! Not very flattering but It is about all I have that my big butt and belly can get into. My first goal was to get out of the260's... again so that was met a couple of days ago. Now my next goal is to get out of the 250's into the 240's and so on. I know I can do it. I just have to stay focused and keep my eyes on the prize! I did put a picture of myself on the frig. It is a picture that I actually think I look decent in. It was taken last year at Christmas with my doggie.... Pepper (she is in heaven now) I love the picture though.

Rat: Please give charley special hugs from me and soft tummy tickles

Pink: I take zoloft and seraquel for my agoraphobia and probably 1/2 to 1 lorazapam per day. I have noticed a huge difference since I started taking this combo of meds. I am able to go out more without too much panic.

I hope everyone has a great day.

Hugs and blessings,
Annie

Good Evening,

Cardiologist appt. went well. He heard a "skip" in my heart and asked me if I could feel it. I said yes so.... he is thinking that could be the chest pains but more than likely they are here because of stress which he wants me to immediately change. Does anyone know where I can get a stress free life for cheap. lol. Okay Dr. will do

Does Catherine still come here? I hope so and if she does. Hi Catherine.

Blessings all,
Annie

Rat - any update on Charley's biopsy? Hug him for all of us.

Annie - since Catherine's flood she's been busy and not able to make it here much - miss her!

Hello, everyone!!!

Doing pretty well. Made four loaves of high fiber banana bread this evening. Gave one to a neighbor. The kids have made huge inroads into another one. I'm thinking I'll wrap one up to give my son's teacher. Basically I had a TON of bananas I needed to use up. I also need to make some zucchini bread before our last zucchini goes bad. And, I bought pumpkin. Yummy!! I love Fall!!

In the olden days, I could have (and did) eat a whole loaf. Now, I can eat about two slices spread out over an hour or so. And enjoy it SOOOO much!!

Even though I can't and don't eat as much as I used to, I definitely enjoy flavors much more than I used to. It's wonderful!

HOlly smokes!!! I have been away a while and yall are chatting up a storm!!

Welcome newbies!!!

Quick fly by. Seems to be that way for me. I am walking every night now. It is finally cooled off here in Arizona.

My tummy is ok. Some days good some days not.

Thanks for the thoughts about my friend who passed away.

Court papers have been filed by my son. Soon I hope we get to see and be part of Ayva's life. How can you love someone with out even knowing her

This weekend is out first annual girls only weekend in a cabin in Strawberry Arizona. There are 5 of us going and I am so excited I can barely stand it!!! A weekend of just girl time..playing cards...chit chatting..no makeup..no work...heaven! I will miss hubby and the kids..but it is so time for me!

Hello my Peeps!

Annie, I hear ya. Send me the stress free lifestyle too! Catherine has popped in periodically for school updates. I think she's taking some tough classes this semester.

GGG, biopsy results are not here yet. Charley has his appetitie back and is slowly healing.

Cyn, have a GREAT time this weekend!!

Wow, basket you've been busy cooking. lol.

Pinky, thanks for Charley hugs. I worry so much when my furkids are sick.

Neon, I am soooo sensitive to salt. I will gain 5 lbs!! if I eat too much salt. I went to a Wine and Balloon fest last weekend and ate a ton of kettle corn. It took almost 3 days for it to go away. Meanwhile, I was trying not to panic.

Sharon, how are you doing? How's your dad? Hugs to that new pup of yours!

Granee, welcome!!!

I am going on the last camping trip of the season (I think). Going with a bunch of other Teardrop campers I met a few weekends ago. The weather is supposed to be wonderful! I'll be taking the dogs with me so I can watch old Charley's incisions.

Boss kitty might be 3 years old, but he acts more like a 12 week old kitten. He discovered the toilet paper roll last night. I now have a mauled roll of TP in the bathroom. I can't leave out the loose rolls because the dogs take them and eat them at their leisure when I'm out of the house LOL. Animals are so much fun!

Hugs to all!
Ratkity

Rat - we have to hide the TP too - Gracie likes to decorate the house just to get at the cardboard center! Charley hugs!

Hi, I lost 7 of the 12lbs I gained whilst ill with toothache. We go to visit my parents on Sunday/Monday for a few days I hope the weather stays good. My old friend who moved to Sacramento (She's a nurse & we worked together before college) came for a visit yesterday it was BRILLIANT, she wants Rolo, lol! I'm hoping my Dad is getting his strength back, he sounds better on the phone but it SO frustrating waiting for his next surgery.
I don't have time to 'chat' as I've not packed anything yet! BUT.... Annie hope you are feeling better. Ratkitty hope your dog gets good results from the tests & heals fast. Cyn enjoy your weekend, I'm jealous!
xxxxxxx sharon

my weight is up by almost 10 lbs. Ughghghghh.

Hello lovelies. I've been keeping quiet the last few days because I feel like that old adage of "if you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all" is very applicable. I'm so frustrated lately, my fuse is gone, and it's all I can do to just get up and get through the day. They still don't have a placement for me at school, and it's two weeks away, so I don't know what to do with myself. I don't want to eat, I don't want to exercise, I don't want to talk to anyone... all I want is to go home. There's a chance I'll have to stay here in Thunder Bay, and if that happens I'm not sure how I'll cope. If I had thought I'd need to spend 16 weeks here, away from everyone I love, I wouldn't have come. So that's why I'm quiet lately... but I'm reading, and following along with you. As for weight, it's not budging. Not up, not down, and I frankly don't care. It was annoying at first, and now I just don't care. I just want to go home, and I can't see caring about anything until I know when that will be.

GREAT NEWS!!!!

Charley's lumps were benign!!!! They had crazy names, but they are NOT cancerous.

w00000t!

Meanwhile, it's been hard to keep him quiet and from licking his incisions.

Hugs,
Ratkity

Rat - that's better than incredible!

Neon - hugs to you.

Rat - I'm SO glad to hear Charley's okay! Yay for benign!

gggirls - Thanks. Stuff's hard, I know I'll get through it, but it's frustrating.