Good Morning

Well, yesterday turned out to be quite the day. The aprons arrived at 10:30, and I printed them non stop until 2:30. Hubby spent the day at the market table, and seemed to do alright. He fielded alot of questions about who he was and where I was I missed alot and Im very sorry I missed it. I have been involved in the steering committee for this event and I was looking forward to being a part of it. Oh well. Hubby was very reluctant to admit that he had a good time. He's funny, he's very good with people, but doesnt like to be...know what I mean? LOL Being nice to all them women yesterday wore him right out

I dont know about you, but I fully believe in the power of 3. Meaning things always happen in 3's. Well I managed to get my "3" all within 24 hours.
1. the apron glitch ($300 mistake)
2. I put a huge scratch in the hood of the car ($$$$$)
3. Came home last night after work turned on the tv to watch the news and it went pfffffffftttttt and started smoking!!! ($900)

The tv isnt that old either....only about 4yrs or so.

Food wasnt great yesterday either but I did get some exercise in.

Bill~yes prison food wouldnt be good.......but on the plus side, there wouldnt be any unplanned eating

onebyone~ I know what you mean about the scale, but you are doing great and by listing your accomplishments it helps you see how good you are doing. : for getting on the scale today.

angel~ how did it go for your husband yesterday?

Thats it for me......have a great day everyone!

Hi all...well dh is still in a holding pattern. Dh believes that the supervisor already had his mind made up..and not for the positive. We will see. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts.

I am doing a little better and am back at work. Wish that I was back in bed now...did take a nap and that seems to help. Thank you for all your thoughts.

good afternoon my coaches,

spoke too soon about the hunger abating! yesterday it was awful, and i suspect that adrenalin was working in my favor on monday. today was pretty bad too, so i called bistro MD and spoke with the dietician. it’s good to have all that data from the monitor! she told me to immediately up my calories by about 200 and to start working out again. will try that for the next two weeks. i won’t know for sure how well that’s working because i also had a visit with my dermatologist about a heinous itchy rash i’ve had on my upper body for the last week and a half that hasn’t gotten any better. two weeks of prednisone…yipes. will need every ounce of beck to deal with that kind of hunger and stay on plan. i’ll also be enjoying PMS next week too, which makes me hungry. what did you say, robin, about things coming in threes? grateful that i know what i know from beck, and from y’all. a year or two ago, a situation like this would take me completely off the rails. i may not be able to stay perfectly OP for the next two weeks, but it won’t be a crazed free-for-all, and i won’t beat myself up no matter what.

GOOD FOR YOU, onebyone! since you’ve already got the right mindset, no matter what happens tomorrow, you’ll be okay. this is great. i’m with bill - your shrinking body tells you the real story of your success. of course you won’t give up! it’s not like the scale can make you suddenly abandon your commitment to caring for yourself. plus, we wouldn’t let that happen. bill, pleased to hear that you’ve decided to stay on the right side of the law. i for one will sleep safer. interesting thought, that! i wonder if prison food is balanced and portion-controlled. some of those prison shows on HBO show pretty big, muscular guys…they probably eat a lot. real criminals as well as actors. how funny about DH, robin! it’s nice to know you’ve got such a solid backup. angelmomma, feel better! it’s tough – especially knowing that your DH is having such a time of it. keeping you both in my thoughts. tera, good luck finding another pool! this is an odyssey that beckie shrinkin undertook in sept – a shining example of perserverence. i think she enjoyed it, too.

here’s to diminished itchy rashy skin, not-to-bad increased hunger from steroids, and a quick return of NBC to the dayton area time warner lineup. they couldn’t get their contract together in time so we’ve been without for about a week. i hate missing biggest loser! (yeah, i know, i know, it’s not “real” or healthy, it’s all editing, etc. i'm still addicted and i don't care who knows it.)

hmmmmmmmm thats interesting!! We have time warner here, and we are missing cbs because of contract crap! Im having to watch The Unit online, the plus side, there are alot less commercials!

It would certainly be nice if there was more than one choice for cable, and I dont count dishes as an alternative. I just forked over thousands for a new roof, the dish network isnt going to be drilling holes into it!!

I hope your rash goes away quickly!! I hate that prednisone stuff, I actually refuse to take it...it messes my system up so bad I actually think Im pregnant! (no kidding) The dr's dont like it when I refuse either .....oh well, pick something else! So! You have my sympathy and all my support to keep on track while you are on that stuff.

i think i could live without CBS, but NBC - sigh. at least they put heroes episodes online in their entirety.

pregnant??? that'll mess your weight loss efforts up, for sure. probably want to check that out for sure.

cheers,
me

Yay! I'm online!

Again, got to be quick so I can get some work done while it lasts. *sigh* Remember those nice, leisurely posts of just last week?

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exercise: at mom's house

Bill: quick clarification, the pool at mom's is outdoor and unheated. The cooler weather is the reason I need to find an alternative.

Good luck with the computer and congrats on your citizenship lesson

jean: you're in my thoughts. I recently discovered that my aunt is one of those who always "feels hungry." She thinks she was misdiagnosed with hypoglycemia as a child and learned simply to eat the moment she felt hungry as a result. Over time, she's forgotten how to recognize real hunger and eat any time she wants.

She's really getting a lot out of Beck and is now in the process of learning her body's signals. Soon, hopefully, she'll learn that valuable self-talk that you seem so capable of now.

onebyone: Do try to focus on how much better you feel at the size you are now. The numbers are not the best measurement of your progress, really they aren't.

for all of you. I wish I had time to address every one individually.

Hi.

well I weighed in today. 2lbs up over last week and guess what? It didn't throw me off track or anything. Whatever is all I can say to that.

Had a busy day again. Spent the first half at school and the middle part at a movie (Appaloosa--a duster!) and then came home to get my homework done for tomorrow afternoon. I have to do a photography assignment about the body. it took me a long time to figure something out but I did it. I think. we'll find out tomorrow. At least I have something to hand in. I have printmaking in the morning and will just use the plate I made last week. I was supposed to have a new one made for tomorrow but don't. I'll need to spend next week in the print room to get caught up. I feel like I am constantly getting caught up or getting it in under the wire. So far so good.

OK. Better get to bed. I need to get some rest.

Have a great evening/night everyone.

PS saw this sign at the nuit blanche event. I think it applies to following foodplans too...

Diet Coaches - Typing from my computer, although my journal file didn't get restored when the hard disk was reloaded. Assume it isn't lost, just needs to be pulled out of the backup this morning. Keeping fingers crossed. The good folks at IT worked for half an hour trying to make my wifi work, going through all the steps that I had tried. I finally noted that it was acting as if wifi were turned off. "Oh", he said, and reached to the side of the computer and turned it on. Problem solved. Seems that my new computer added a switch to turn the wifi off. When off, it keeps this a secret and allows you to search for signals and only reports that it found none. Oh Well.

At an expo before lunch I had to pass a table with four big trays of freshly baked cookies. Passed by without a problem. CREDIT moi. Passing on full trays of whole cookies is not a big deal for me currently. It's just those broken pieces headed to the trash that I feel called upon to rescue, LOL.

onebyone - Kudos for not being thrown off track in the face of scale jitter. Whatever indeed. Like the print you posted. Yep, that's Beck alright, follow the process and the product will follow.

Robin (RobinW) - Ouch, Ouch, Ouch, for the three problems of your day. Sounds like you were printing aprons right through lunch; did you remember to eat? LOL at the thought that prison will solve the problem of unplanned eating. Hope your day is better.

Jeanie (kuhljeanie) - Ouch for hunger and itching. Yay for the Bistro MD dietitian upping you by 200 calories. Hope that does the trick. Good thought that prison food may be balanced and nutritious. Wonder if one were wealthy, could they have restaurant food delivered to the prison each day? Curious minds want to know.

angelmomma210 - Glad to hear you're feeling a little better. Continuing to send positive thoughts to your DH.

Tera (twilit tera) - Kudos for continuing to stay the course. Understand that it's the cooler weather that causing you to loose access to your mom's pool. Maybe if Sue (CostalSue) is reading, she can share her secret for being able to swim outdoors in seriously cool weather. [Waving at Sue (CoastalSue)]

Readers - "Food can be an effective distractor - temporarily. But eating doesn't solve the problem that led to your distress in the first place." Beck, pg 228.

Good morning Beckster coaches!

Just about out the door but wanted to wish everyone a good OP Thursday. I
stayed OP and the scale rewarded me with a drop so I am content. It really was water weight. ready to get through another day even if I could not get to sleep until 3am because I was worrying over every little thing... and I mean everything. I will pay for that this afternoon. For now, I've got to get the bus... talk later!

Bye for now.

Daily Report:

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spontaneous exercise: very careful during housecleaning (trying not to reinjure knee)

Something of interest about that last bit... I found that, if I'm careful not to bounce (simple) or twist (less simple) while I'm dancing, I can manage to not stress the knee too much, especially if I move my arms and legs in a seated position (less temptation to twist). I think I've found a way to keep up my exercise schedule on days I can't get to mom's house or the health club.

Hmmm. YOU: On a Diet says that having a wide variety of food options encourages you to eat more than you need. I wonder if having a wide variety of exercise options is good for increasing my level of activity? Wow, saying it "out loud" makes it seem pretty obvious.

onebyone: I literally cheered out loud when I read your two posts, first that you didn't let the number on the scale control whether or not you were going to stay on plan and second that the number came down the next day. good luck in class.

Bill: I find that any time I can't figure out what's wrong with the computer, either something is unplugged, turned off or disconnected. I tend to exhaust all the difficult options before moving on to the simple ones, even when I know that the simpler ones are better to start with.

If someone added a switch while my back was turned, I'd be helpless. Congrats on a working machine. for passing up cookies and cookie bits!

good morning my coaches,

1st day on steroids, doing well, knock wood. the itching has improved to the point where i can ignore instead of scratch (yay) and the good doc said that by friday it should be tons better. down another pound since yesterday, and 3 days in the sub-180s has made me confident enough to change my ticker. it's been almost four years since i was in the upper 170's - stayed there for a good two weeks before a family trip to NYC threw me off plan, and i stayed off long enough to get back to 183 or thereabouts (traditionally a set point for me.) have no intention of getting back up there, steroids or not. will increase my fluids and grit my teeth to get through the next 12 days without allowing this medication to get the best of me. i said it out loud. steroids, you will not convince me to eat more!

thanks, tera, for thinking of me! i got a full blood workout a few months ago (just due for one) and my fasting glucose, etc. sugar stuff looked totally normal. i may just have a more active metabolism than they usually see with someone coming into this program. (not a bad thing!) i added my 200 calorie snack last night and felt much, much better. i also like your suposition about taking the YOAD principle about variety and applying it to exercise! just last night, i got a sudden thought occur to me: i wonder if i'd enjoy tap dancing lessons now as much as i did when i was a teenager? might just check out local classes - who knows? bill - mazel tov on working on your own computer! that's gotta feel pretty good. and even more amazing that those tables of cookies don't hold much appeal to you anymore, even with their freeness. that's absolutely tremendous. onebyone, of COURSE you're feeling strong and OP - it's just gravy that the scale gave you another drop. something has fundamentally shifted in you in the past few months. it's inspiring as **** to see. robin, just figured out that what you meant was that being on steroids makes you feel like you're pregnant. you're not literally wondering if you're pregnant or not. duh, me.

quickie update - el nino is doing 100% better. he's still draining from a cold, but it's the standard snotty kid stuff, and his eating continues to impress and intimidate his parents. back to his usual cheerful self. nice!

Good Morning

kuhlejeanie~ no you were right the first time. I used to go to the dr after about 2 weeks on the stuff and get tested. It messed everything up so bad that I really thought I was pregnant. Scary stuff, because you dont want to be taking that stuff if you are. I havent taken it in over 15yrs. so that your itchy rash goes away right quick!!

hmmm, that's something to think about isnt it. If I only have the treadmill to choose fromm and Im sick and tired of it, maybe Id opt for something else if I had a choice. Interesting thought Tera.

onebyone~ Im glad the scale did a dip for you after moving the wrong way the other day. I love the sign you found!! I hate those nights I think about every little detail and it keeps me up most of the night. Hopefully tonight will be better

Bill~do you think the cookie crumb thing, is a food waste issue? Perfectly good broken chunks of cookie shouldnt be tossed out. That must be how they came up with blizzards at dairy queen......all those broken bits get tossed into icecream. Kudos for walking past the cookie trays!!

So far so good today. We went and priced new tv's Im not in a rush to replace it. I certainly do alot more without it. I went home last night made supper, made a few calls to family members, then went out and did some shopping that needed to be done. Got home and watched (on the old little bad picture tv) ghost hunters and was off to bed. This might be a good thing....and I dont know if I'll be able to convince hubby to hold off for a bit longer. We'll see.

Bill~ yes I did eat lunch when I was printing aprons, but I wasnt just eating while standing, I was eating while moving. Bites taken between movements. Not good, but I did eat. What was kinda cool tho, I kept saying 10 more aprons, then I'll sit down and eat, then....10....then 10 more. I managed to convince myself when I had 20 left that I could break at least a little bit to get it out of the bag and warm it up.

Off to do some shirts.........have a great day everyone!

Diet Coaches - Minor victory: at Whole Foods I already had samples of smoked fish and cheese when I came upon Cape Cod Potato Chips. Without thinking I scooped a bunch. But before the pincers left the bowl my Beck brain engaged, "I don't do potato chips," it said. So, I let go the pincers and the chips and checked out with my 24 ounce bag of 365 French Roast coffee beans and pound of strawberries on sale. CREDIT moi. It just blows my mind how automatically I will reach for FREE junk food like those potato chips, when I'm able to pass on platters of good looking cookies as "Not about me."

onebyone - Ouch for worrying away your sleep time. Hope you can catch up.

Robin (RobinW) - LOL at "eating while moving." It's kinda fun when life is too important to be interrupted for eating. Congrats on servicing your customer in record time. Your focus on service must keep your customers coming back to you.

RE "Do you think the cookie crumb thing, is a food waste issue?" It may be; it's certainly there, but if that were the only issue, I'd think that my rational brain could dispense with the thought. Perhaps I can pass on whole trays of cookies because they're not going to waste. I think it's some little kid part of me getting the FREE cookie thing. Licking the icing from the bowl or the beaters was a BIG treat when I was a kid - we weren't starving, but I'd fight with my brothers to be first to lick the bowl.

Jeanie (kuhljeanie) - Yay for steroids. Will they pack on some muscle? Congrats for the moving ticker. And yay for el nino back to eating.

angelmomma210 - Waving. Continuing to send positive thoughts to your DH.

Tera (twilit tera) - LOL at "I tend to exhaust all the difficult options before moving on to the simple ones." BTDT.

Readers -

Good Morning

Bill~ I sure hope our customer service brings them back LOL This was their second order for us, and Im hoping this little mess up (even tho we made it right) didnt scare them away.

Kudos for dropping the potoato chips!! Here is something to help you keep from testing out the free samples........think of how many other fingers have been in that bowl....and who knows where those fingers have been!!

Yesterday was a pretty good food day, and a little exercise...so not too shabby. I had to have a filling replaced, so I did that yesterday afternoon. That changed up my eating for last night. The dentist didnt want me eating anything hard and really chewy, so I had eggs and toast

Today I have a coffee date with my old personal trainer.....we'll see what comes of that. Then some window lettering installation on some windows at 4. Nice busy day....and the sun is shining, so I'll actually be able to get out and enjoy a bit of it.

Have a great day everyone!

Good Morning Coaches.

It's a bright and sunny Friday. It mirrors the mood I am in for getting through my school week. *phew* I just made it is how I feel... Again can I say it? It was a tough week. Only three more tough weeks to go.

The weather is fantastic and the forecast just as good so the markets should be hoppin' this weekend. I really need to get some stock made for the markets, including finishing two paintings for a customer.

Of course there is homework to be done over the weekend too so-- lots of juggling going on in my life. And this weekend is Canadian Thanksgiving and I haven't heard a peep from family so no Thanksgiving plans with any of them... yes, the weirdness on that front continues. I'm not too worried. Things are the way they are. I am working on acceptance of my own reality. DH and I will go out for Thanksgiving dinner somewhere or go visit some friends... or see a movie! I would like that.

But nevermind that; let's talk about my food. it's great! Still going strong after my confrontation this week with the scale. I did not manage to get all my meals in yesterday. I just haven't fully pre-planned, though I do faithfully carry my spongebob metal lunchbox with me to school with some protein and some veggies in it. Credit moi for that. Also on movie day this week I waited to have my carbohydrates in the form of popcorn so credit moi for that. I am drinking my water most days (can still improve here) 1/2 credit for this. And I am almost through the harsh return to the weight loss cycle of my foodplan. 5 days in a row of specific carbohdryates only before 3pm and only once during that time. I just had one slice of toast and am actually having some wonton soup for breakfast. I feel a cold could come and get me so I had the urge for soupo and that was handy. Though it is not the kind of carb (white flour) my food plan calls for, I've subbed it before and no problem. So, here's to rational thinking and following your gut and your foodplan here!here!

better go. things are good and life is good and the weather's GREAT ... everyone have the best Friday you can stand!

RobinW I had a touch of envy when you wrote you were lettering windows! This is job fraught with tension but it looks so nice... I love lettering of all kinds. Funny eh? Hope you have a good chat with the personal trainer.... I am sure you will! Good going setting that up

BillBlueEyesLOL at pincers! I can just see you, clawing your way to the bottom of the chip bowl, big mitts full of crispy fried things... and you let them get away! Threw them back into the pond. If this isn't a fantastic example of someone having choice and exercising choice I don't know what is. that your brain kicked in and you listened is truly worth a kudo. It just wasn't worth the mental and emotional agony to eat that stuff. Awesome. I am trying to kick sugarfree pop and fake sugar in anything. I am doing okay but there is so much of it around. I'm turning to decaf coffee big time, and water, and tea. Hard though.

kuhljeanieHi! yeah something has shifted-mostly I found a foodplan that I can happily submit myself to and it a) works and b) is healthy and c) is forgiving. Amazing. And I discovered I really want this. I just want to move on already on this weight issue. i am so tired of thinking the same things and worrying the same issues... give me something new! Time to deal with the weight... thank goodness I have all you coaches to assist. You just keep reminding me it's important to do this and don't stop no matter what. Thanks to you and to everyone else. And kudos on the weightloss and the moving forward as well. Impressive!

twilit tera Big Kudos to you! You're just stringing together a bunch of OP days and getting exercise in and making it all work for yourself. that's fantastic. I have found that on those days when I despair the most at never being able to lose weight and the dumb scale seems to support my negative thinking, well those are the days my body is really dropping weight. I don't know why the thoughts are the opposite of the reality but they are. perhaps my body is signalling that it is losing fat/weight as in "HELP I DON'T WANT TO LET THIS GO I MAY STARVE" becasue the body wants as much tissue as it can get to stay alive and so this gets translated into the thoughts that used to help me keep weight on and/or eat more (to prevent this tissue from being lost) this being "You'll never lose weight; this isn't working; why bother it's too hard"... you know those thoughts. They would inevitably get me to eat for sure and thereby prevent the weightloss. I almost have to cheer these thoughts now don't I? They signal it's all working... sometimes things are not as they seem... Thanks for your support.

angelmomma210 How are things with you today? feeling better? Any news on DH's job?? Sending you a big today.