I agree that the hardest part is letting it go. Whats funny is you only miss it for a little while, and then you dont miss it at all. I guarantee that if you give up fast food for 30 days, you will not crave it anymore, and if you do.. eat it. See how you feel. You will get the worst stomach ache, and headache. Thats what breaks me from stuff. Give it up for a month, then I will be like WOW I havent had that in forever, I will just get something small. Then it makes you sick so you are like NEVERMIND. lol

I am a very muscular girl, and always have been, so my excuse was that I was just so muscular lol. I look back at pictures, and I am just like OMG I cant believe it. I need my friend to send my before pics to show you all what I mean.

It started after I got married (seriously) -- he likes to eat and I guess I never thought about it only that I needed larger clothes (yea like the dryer did it). The worst realization of realizing I was/am fat (to me anyhow) was when I saw my summer vacation photos and the movie from the camcorder - oh my!

College happened!
With all the food choices and late night eating...I had it coming.
Not to mention I always seemed to eat fast food, vending machine food, and greasy fatty cafeteria food.

For me it was this new years, normally I try to avoid picture but since I got all dolled up I figured OK. When I looked at them after I could not believe how fat I looked. When I look in the mirror that is not the person I see.

I know what has caused my weight gain, depression it is the worst thing in the world. I started not caring what I was putting into my body, how I looked. I just felt terrible about myself. I also use my weight as a wall against getting into a relationship. I had a terrible childhood and never really trusted men, last year my mom died at the hands of her ex, that scared me. She was only turning 44.

I want to be happy with my life. Mind, body and soul. I am taking slow steps to achieve this goal and I know one day "fat or thin" it will happen for me.

I am a single mom and I want to show my daughter how to be happy in her own skin. I can't do that unless I am happy in my own.

I had the same thoughts... first, I'd never go over 140, then 150... etc.

After losing my college 50 and keeping it off for a few years this happened

• blew out my knee - stopped being active, actually spent most of three months laying in bed with my leg elevated = 20 lbs
• got pregnant and went crazy after 6 years of meticulously counting calories=50 lbs
• then I lost about 15 over the course of a year, but then
• pregnant again - didn't go crazy, gained 15 lbs

And this is when it started to get ugly

• Caribeean Cruise Vacation = 5 lbs
• 14 days with college buddies vacation = 5 lbs
• Thanksgiving through Chrismas = 5 lbs
• Throw in eating the kids leftovers at every meal for 2 year and

BOOM

5'2" and 217 lbs

I hate to think where I would have been if I hadn't been trying to stay good between pregnancies and vacations. Actually - I would be up in the 250-300+ range with my mom and grandpa.

Actually - none of us should blame our weight on pregnancies. If you ever stop and notice, the skinny people are right back in to their pre-pregnant clothes (and some even thinner than that), within 6 months.