It's so funny you say that because for a long time, even when I was heavy, I didn't see myself as fat. But - at the same time - I knew I was. If that makes any sense. It's hard to explain, but I'm sure some of you understand what I mean. I guess I was just in denial.

Oh this thread is turning very cathartic for me! I'm glad to see so many other people feel the same way. I struggle with my inner fitness **** all the time. It's natural I think. I feel so much better these days. I'm so estactically happy to be fit and healthy and I wish everybody could feel this way too. I'm also and older sister, so bossiness comes naturally I would never ever open my mouth and give the advice that wants to come out though.

It even makes me uncomfortable when people *ask* for advice, because they never seem to actually want to hear my real thoughts on the subject. They want a quick fix or a magic pill, so when I talk about exercising every day and moderating my food intake they just go blank and stop listening.